Show Us Your Kichen!

Again over at Kellys Korner we are doing kitchens! Of course I don't have the most high tech kitchen since I am renting, but I consider mine a really nice one. Everything matches and everything works! Its all basically pretty easy to clean. My kitchen isn't as straightened up as it usually is. I usually don't have a lot on my counter tops but because we are getting ready to go on leave I just haven't cared too much. I got a million lists on my fridge too tee-hee. So there is my kitchen! I'll be back in a few hours to do my Friday Fill In :)

Why is the biggest question?

So lately I have been debating back and forth on if I should move home when Hubby deploys. I am coming up with more Pro's to move home then to stay here. I had a big talk with Hubby and my parents and all 3 of them want me to go home.
I was staying to help a friend out, who has 2 kids and is on disability and also because of the things going on with a sibling...but now that things with that sibling are really settling down, my friend is starting to..blow me off.
Today on my FB, I put a status that just said...its time for me to start thinking about what I want and need.....my "dear" friend responded with....Why??
Hmm...why is the question. Why should I start to beginning to question if I am staying here for the right reasons or not? Why shouldn't I get what I want? Why should I have to stay where I feel I am being used?
Its not a fun thing for me to be selfish...but I am think I need to be. I have so much support at home. I have a huge history with depression, and I know it will be worse with Hubby away. I can have a job at home, with people I love, a job I am good at, and flexible hours! Why should I have to be at someone else's beck and call, who finds it so easy to blow me off?
Which is what she does. I am only useful to her when she's bored. Its a lot for me to be selfish, like I have said before...I am not a mean person, and I know she's going through a hard time, but its just no fair and definitely not ok for her to ask so much of me, and then have me feel only at use when she has no other options. I feel for her, I really do..but is what she's doing to me right in anyway?
I pretty much have my mind made up, though I do want to think on it for a few days. I don't want this choice to be rushed in anyway, and I want to always remember I didn't jump into such a huge decision. I am possibly ruining a friendship making this choice.
Hubby has told me, if she ruins your friendship over this then it wasnt a friendship to begin with. I know he is right. But how do I tell her? I think...I need to not care. Its my choice my life, and if it's one thing I need to learn is that in a year or two I wont be here anymore, and even if our friendship makes it...we will never see eachother again, or even talk.
I think my mind is made up.

More Questions...

1. What is your favorite holiday tradition? Either one you had as a child or one you started with your own family?


Hmm, I think its always been putting up the Christmas Decorations on Thanksgiving Day with my mom. One thing you gotta understand about my family, is my parents have always given us the freedom to do what we want. I have a sister who passed away 10 years ago, a mentally and physically handicapped sister, a brother 13 years older then me, and a nephew living in Sweden...so we don't really have a lot of times when we are together..but that's always been my favorite. I love to help her, I am super sad I won't be able to do it with her this year.


2. What is your favorite book and why?
I honestly can say Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince...but I also love Deathly Hallows. I just barelly finished the whole series a few weeks ago, and it was worth it! Its nerdy to have that as a favorite but I love it!! I went from a Twi-Hard??? to a Magical Freak.

3. What is the best vacation you went on?
Oahu, Hawaii...hands down. Most beautiful place ever.

4. What is your favorite brand of clothes or store to shop at?
I love Old Navy. Its not too expensive and the jeans always fit me really good. Most people whine about their jeans but I love the way they make me look like I have a booty!

5. What is your favorite quality about yourself?
That I don't cause confrontation too much. I have so many friends who are loose lipped when they want to be. But how I have always wanted to be is just know I was the nice one, and hey at least I tried.

6. How do you and your spouse/significant other continue to make your relationship special?
I think its that, we know in this life we have to have a lot of alone time. We make it worth it. We go out on dates all the time.

7. What's your favorite thing to do on the weekends?
Go out with my husband. Sometimes go to a friends house and play a few games and watch a movie or two.

8. Why do you blog?
I love to write. I want to share my story with everyone. It will be a nice outlet when hubby deploys, and get support from my family and friends and everyone else who reads this. Its nice to have ALOT of support when you go through things like this. But I am realistic....I think the main reason is to remember everything, because I suck at keeping a journal.

My Day Book.

So I find myself ending this day alone. Hubby wants to sleep early all the time, and I'm not ready when he is, so here I am. I found a cool new thing The Simple Womans Day Book which seemed like another fun questionnaire.

Outside my window... ~ Is utter darkness. Quite peaceful.

I am thinking... ~ How dumb single soldiers can be...texting my sleeping hubby at 11pm when he gets up at 5..just curious what they are thinking.

I am thankful for... ~ Everything I have. My husband who wants to give me everything, and protect me from anything.

I am wearing... ~ My hubbys Dane Cook concert t-shirt, my sissys shorts and barefooted.

In the learning room... ~ Laptop and LA Ink.

I am remembering... ~ That everyones gone though different things, its not me to judge.

I am going... ~ insane waiting for leave to come up!

I am currently reading... ~ The Notebook, hopefully starting tomorrow.

I am hoping... ~ Time flys by.

On my mind... ~How peacefully my hubby is sleeping.

Noticing that... ~ Life throws a million curve balls.

Pondering these words... "Life is not a fairytale"

From the kitchen... ~ theres dishes to be put away...but I just dont feel like it.

Around the house... ~ There's always blankets.

One of my favorite things ~ my bad trashy reality tv :)

From my camera...~ Hubby and I picking out clothes to wear for deployment pictures. My tank is hot pink not purple by the way. I am gonna miss him.