potty weekend!!

This weekend was another really chill one. For one thing Evelyn has had a bug, we had a frozen rain storm, I have caught Evelyns tummy bug, and all in all we just didnt do much besides stay inside and enjoy some Harry Potter movies. (I used to think Utah was cold at 8*, but this 35* weather with that humidity...ahh freezes your body!)

I have mentioned before that Evelyn has started a tad bit of potty training. When she first got the potty, I was sitting her on the potty every few hours, she went one time and I thought this would get easier. She didn't go again and started playing with the potty (it makes music), so I backed off of her. She's still young and I shouldn't be forcing her.

(PS here's her potty area.)

Every once in a while Evelyn would come into the bathroom with me, even if I really didn't want her to and she would sit on her potty and act like she wanted to go. Sometimes I took her pants off, sometimes I didnt.

Then Saturday Evelyn ran to the bathroom door and was trying to get in, so I said "You want to go potty?" and she kept trying to get in, so I opened the door took her pants and diaper off and she sat down. At first I was just like, ya another bust...then she sat up and ran away, I looked and she had pee'd! Talk about being excited about pee. I told her Dad to come give her some praise! We praised her and let her pick out her sticker for her chart and she went back on her day. We tried a few more times with no success that day. The next day before bath time I stuck her on the potty again, and she went again! Seriously I am proud to clean up her potty.

So P and I decided that we should put her on a schedule. We know Evelyn is only 1 1/2 and so we shouldn't push it to hard. But she seems interested a little more and the girl is so proud of her stickers! No harm in still trying. I've read about having a naked day, and I tell you I thought that was ridiculous, but then I started noticing that I don't know Evelyn's signals for needing to go potty. So as horrible as it sounds to be following her around all day making she she doesn't poop all over the place, I think I am going to be brave and do it! Even if its for a half a day. I'll just remind her there is a potty here and she can use it, and I'll be sure to have loads of carpet cleaner!

I forgot.

P is back on the GCF, which means if something happens he is gone. He's been on it before and its never bothered me. This time however, they sent P a packing list and we had to pack him all up just incase. While our living room was destroyed with Army gear and I'm highlighting the things he's packing I suddenly realize...I forgot how this all felt.

I told myself after 2 back to back deployments I would never forget, I would never dull the feeling to the extent of forgetting that at any moment we could be on a time line for him to deploy.

I have become comfortable.

I sat there and remembered how many times I ragged on him for sleeping in when it was my night, Fighting because he made a mess, telling him to sleep on the couch when he was drunk and I didnt want to deal with him. Now I know that we are also a married couple and married couples fight, and thats completly normal, but I'm sure I am not the only other Army Wife that has felt like they slipped into the comfortable feeling like we are normal and its not possible for him to leave again.

Having P be on the GCF this time has really opened my eyes. I am fine with being comfortable but not to the point to being a normal comfortable.

So with P's birthday coming up, and I planning on pulling out all the stops (especially since his B-Day is Super Bowl Sunday), and having a celebration! He doesnt want anyone to come over, which is fine, its not like we have friends here anyways, but I'm planning on making him some of is favorite foods and just making it a party! Valentines Day is coming up too and because we wont have a sitter I'm planning a stay-at-home game date night. Seriously the Wii is the best invention for parents with no sitters for Date Night.

I hope I can create some good memories on these special days, and random days inbetween so if something ever does come up and he has to deploy I won't be looking back and wishing I hadn't fought with him about not putting his dishes away or leaving clothes on the floor.

Live like he's deploying tomorrow.

18 months!

Oh my dear sweet baby girl! You turned 18 months on Sunday, and seriously its hard to believe. But when I sit back and look at you and watch you play I see my little one year old turning into a two year old.

You have such a fondness for almost anything girlie. Your teapot and accessories with it are almost always in your eye sight if you not playing with them. Your 4 babies are fed and shhh'd. Your Minnie Mouse car gets you places you want to go.

We are about to put you into a booster chair! You hate sitting in your high chair, and lets face it black is not a smart color for a high chair, your constantly trying to sit at the table, so its time we get you sitting like a big girl!

Potty Training has gone on hold while you've been sick. Mom and Dad are still deciding if we should start a potty schedule for you or not.

Your finally starting to used or at least create words! If I asked you to say please you say "paa?" working on it. Thank you is "anks". More is "why?" ya. You say "bayyybee!". Ball is "baaa". Tinkerbell is "ink-bell!". Minnie Mouse is "ouse" You say "No" very clear, but I still don't think you understand what "no" really means.

Your still more of a Daddies Girl then a Mommas girl, but I think that's just because your home with me all day. But Dad still wont change dirty diapers so I still think its a tad bit unfair.

Your the light of my life little girl! You brighten my day and even when I dont want to get out of bed you give me the best hugs and that pushes me to do that much more with you! I love you little princess! Happy Half Birthday!!

Love Mommy!

go away January!

Is it just me or is January just the most depressing month?

I read an article yesterday about how yesterday is the most depressing day of the year, because this is when resolution fall apart. Its true...lets admit it, we get into it and 3 weeks later we are bored of it.

After the Holidays going into a month like January where you start feeling like a failure...aka I feel like one. No more Holiday decor, no more presents to buy, bills are due, normal life is back.

I only feel like a failure because this weekend I really let go of my diet...my husband didnt help with that. I crave cake, he buys me a cake. I have a headache and cant get rid of it, he gets me chocolate and pepsi (which is my cure for headaches), I am bored of water, he gets me a soda. Guess what...instead of saying no to the delicious red velvet cake he bought me...I eat it...but do my best not to over indulge. It took me all weekend to the (half cake) he bought me...with his over indulging helping me.

P and I have had this talk many times. I appreciate him helping me, but he is not the best encourager when he is making hamburger helper, tacos, lasagna, ice cream and so on and so forth. I think he thinks its not a big deal, but I am really trying this time, and I do a horrible job at keeping up on losing weight.

I dont mind eating some cheaper, junkier foods especially when we had a sick baby on our hands this weekend, but when he is requesting to make all this crap all the time, oh it kills me.

I know everyone says you have to lose weight for yourself...but I've never ever felt like I need to do it for me. I want to do it to set an example for Evelyn on healthy eating, I want to do it so my back wont be in so much pain whenever we decide to get pregnant again, and I want my husband to think I'm sexy...er.

Anyways...it's a brand new week. Which means a brand new start to getting back on track, and as long as I am still trying I am doing good. But really I think if I was in a better month full of decorations and lots of things to keep me busy...like every other month besides January, I'd feel less inclined to give in to cravings. But who knows Febuary is P's birthday and Valentines Day...so its the Chocolate Month. At least I am trying.