Evie meeintg Santa

We took Evelyn to meet Santa on the 1st...and of course I am just getting around to posting about it.

P needed to go Christmas shopping for me, so it was really the perfect time to head to the Mall and see him, then seperate and meet for lunch. We got there at 10 when Santa was to appear and of course there was already a line! So we got in and waited...I'll tell you right now...I wish I had my stroller because Evelyn was sick of us holding her after 10 minutes.

When she first saw Santa she just smiled and was all good with it. Then a lady came to take Evelyn to Santa and Evelyn of course jumped right into her arms...because the girl has no stranger danger at all! But as soon as she started walking towards Santa, Evelyn was climbing over her shoulders trying to get out of there. So we just decided to get in the picture with her.

She looks much happier right?

 

 

A little update.

Since my blogging has been so up in the air I decided to give you all an update on how things in the L. household are latley.

Lets start with P. Since I last updated about him, he has going through Airborne school, or had just finished. Either way P had his first jump at Fort Bragg a few weeks ago! Since I didnt go to his Airborne Graduation I couldnt wait to watch him jump here. When I got the chance I went and boy am I glad I did. Its the coolest thing ever to see them jump! I could have watched all day!

Its kinda hard to see but he is jumper #11

 

Other then that he has been getting off early all day this week. Super shocking!! I never though I'd see the day. He takes Christmas leave on Monday and we cant wait to have him home for a long period of time, and it will definitly be nice to show him that I do not sit around all day again.

 

 

Now for Evie. She's doing fanstastic! We are working really hard on her speach and pointing out body parts...so far she loves to show her Belly...or in her words "ebby!". Shes still learning Toes but when I ask her to say Toes she says "ooes". So we're getting it! She is also learning her name...but since I think saying Evelyn is a little complex for her right now we have been saying "E" or "Eeee!! Me Eee!!" in her words.

She also loves to color! She's always on her doodle pad, or pointing to her crayons. We have works of art all over our fridge and her walls.

 

 

Oh and me...I am doing pretty good. I finally got my hair dyed back to its natural color, and I'm loving it. I do miss the blonde highlights but maybe some other time I'll put them back in. I have been working on getting myself onto a schedule so I can start a workout routine. I usually go off of Evelyns schedule, and while that works most days, most days I'll forget I have to clean and keep up on housework, then it will be 3 weeks later and I have so much to do in one day. So for now on I'll be taking an hour or two out of the day where Evelyn is behind the gate in her room with her music and I'll be cleaning or even just taking time to myself to read/write/blog whatever I want.

Its very typical of me to get caught up in the roles I play and lose myself. I dont want to look back in 40 years and say I was an amazing Mom and an amazing Wife, but I was not an amazing me. It will take time to balence it, but I'm going to do it. If Evelyn ever wants to be a stay at home mom I want to give her advice on stuff I actually did and stuggled with being a SAHM.

One thing I have been fond of latley is my crafting and heres just a few things I have done over the last few weeks...

 

I'm pretty proud of myself when I see these things!

 

 







Back and Forth.

Things have finally started to settle down here in my household. I am not crying all the time or grieving the loss of my friend. I've started getting some closure on his death, after talking to his Grandmother, and sending her a letter with memories of him in it.

I didnt think I would ever take a death this hard ever again. After you lose a sibling, losing Grandparents or anything such as that seems more like it there time. then super sad. Of course I am always sad and grieve the losses of my Grandparents who have passed, but I have always known they lived a full healthy life. But this friend was a different grief, reminded me alot of how I felt when I lost my sister. Your just so sad that a young life was lost.

Enough about my grief. I am dealing with it, and I really am glad he found the peace he has been searching for.

I have lots of things going through my brain and latley have no way of putting it out into my blogosphere. I have been finding other ways to put out feelings and such by painting and crafting. If you follow me on Instagram you've seen the photos. I am sorry I cannot show you them, Blogger apperently isnt a an of me anymore and I am going to hopefully switch to WP soon.

If you have suggestions on how to do it please let me know :)

I have started my Christmas Menu and my New Years menu and my Anniversary menu! I get way excited early! But this is a magical time of year! Although Halloween is my favorite holiday, this time of the year is filled with some much love, and joy!

Anyone got any great things coming up this month as well?

Oh! Well Hello There!

Hey ya'll! Sorry I havent posted anything...this week has sure been a busy, horrible, sad, terrifying week for me, and to be honest I just havent given a damn about blogging.

To start this week it was pretty ok...nothing bad really. P had field training for a few days but latley that seems normal. The night before P went away I woke up for some reason in the middle of the night, and had an urge to look at my phone, when I learned a good friend of mine had taken his life.

Now I am not going into detail about how great of friends we were, for a while we had a great relationship, I could probably call him a best friend at one point in my life. He helped me get through a deep dark depression I was in, that he was also in too. I'm so sad that he couldnt find his light in life, and I know he was greeted by his mother in heaven. However, still I am shaken up and sad about this loss. I probably havent talked to him in about 2 years, but this doesnt make the loss any lighter on my heart. I know all to well what he had been going through, and I know how it feels to want to end it all. I can only hope he found the peace he was looking for.

Because P left for the field the morning I found out, I was alone for 2 days. I took bubble baths and wrote his Grandmother a letter. But I couldnt really get out of my funk of being sad for him and his family. I'm glad my mother has decided to go to the funeral, she was friends with his grandmother. I wish I could go too.

I'm having another hard go right now...not sure how I feel about some things but I can only hope it will get better.

I feel bad that I havent been such a hands on Mom with Evelyn the last couple of days, but she doesnt seem to mind. Usually she's pretty happy to just listen to music and watch a little TV, but I did manage to get her crafting/coloring with me.

But of course I cant show you because blogger is a POS.

Anyways...so I do have a review coming up...and hopefully I'll be out of this funk soon. :)