Thought and Input

I've been seeing this article floating around on my Facebook timeline. Its titled "6 ways to protect your child from sexal abuse" as I looked through the article I could see several ideas that seemed liked pretty reasonable ways to protect kids from abuse... but then some I sorta disagreed with. Such as "do not force your child to give affection such as saying "gimmie a kiss"" .. come one who doesn't say that to their child? Or "telling your child to be good"... I believe telling my child she needs to behave in the store is perfectly acceptable!

But I'm still open minded to what the author was writing. I don't personally know the author, so I have no clue if she has any history of being sexually abused. But for me speaking as a person who has been sexually abused, I have to agree with one point the author made.

"Know that potential abusers may not be who you expect."

I was abused by a brother and my best friends brother. I have come in contact through years of therapy with others who have been abused and learned that it happens quite often that a family member or people close to the child are the abusers. That's one thing I really take from this article and one thing I hope people really know and understand to ALWAYS be careful of who you leave your child with.

My best friends brother raped me and it only happened one time. I was sleeping over at her house and her brother, who was very popular are cute had asked me to come into another room with him to watch a movie when it happened. My Mom didn't know for a while, and I pretended like it never happened. This is another reason why my kids will not be doing the sleepover thing... it happens a lot! It happens often that things like that happen during sleepovers. Not to mention experimenting with drugs and alcohol. This boy came from a nice Christian family, and it still happened.

My brother... well he has his own huge set of issues. Its been almost 3 years since I talked to him... but it happened about 10 years ago... about the year mark after I was raped. My brother knew I was taking sleeping medications and decided to sneak into my room and attack me, and it happened more then once. My parents room was right across the hall from mine. He was reported and did a lot of therapy and even some time in juvie for what he did for me, and is now currently in prison. He had admitted to abusing my little sister as well, which if you know about her she is handicapped and is physically incapable of talking. He also admitted to going after other family members as well. His issues are his own... and I have put him behind me, and I have forgiven him for what he did to me.

I only share these stories and experiences to open peoples eyes. This stuff does happen all the time! Its nothing my parents did wrong to cause me to be abused, these things happened to me because of the person who did it. I didn't do anything wrong, and to be honest I am not sure there was much I really could have done. My parents have often had issues about what happened to me and how they could have prevented it, especially when one of them happened in their own home. But this has caused me to really think about how P and I will raise our children... one of the hardest parts of being a parent is realizing that I just cannot protect Evelyn from everything, but I can learn from what has happened in my own life and apply that to my parenting today.

By telling my child what her body parts are at an early age is not going to stop her from abuse, and not asking for kisses is certainly not going to stop it either. All I can do is warn my child of the dangers in the world and do my best to protect her. Set up rules and hope that nothing happens to her. Limit the contact with people who watch her, and if I have a gut feeling, then I need to follow it and not dismiss it. One day my children will understand how I feel, and if they are mad they are not allowed to have sleep overs then so be it... but I will do all I can to protect them. That's just my input.

Black Friday

Hey everyone! I know its been another long run of no blogging... but I am still going to blame it on potty training. While things have been getting better... Evelyn still has her days of wishing we would just throw a diaper on her again... and believe me I sometimes really want to!

Anyways... I thought before I do my 35 week post and my Thanksgiving post that I would write about Black Friday.

I am a pretty big bargain shopper... you kind of have to be when you're a one income family with almost 2 kids. I'm not the type to haggle people in stores and at their yard sales.. but when I see a good deal, its a good deal!

Black Friday, its only been my thing since I had Evelyn. Do you know how expensive kids are? Then to get online and see this amazingly cute $40 dress on sale for $10?! But I will say this... I'd rather do the Black Friday thing, online. I don't really feel like dying over a pair of shoes.

But it really disappoints me to see people just rag on anyone who participates in Black Friday. I mean.. I get that it is madness! But I really honestly don't see the harm in the people who aren't going to kill you for that TV, saving some money and spoiling their families. One thing about Christmas is it is the time for giving, and I love to give my family everything, and Black Friday makes that a possibility. Sure these are material items, they will be junk in a few years, and hey maybe they will be someone elses junk, but to spend money on it, and watch my family enjoy their gifts is a huge blessing for me.

Evelyn still loves her toys she got for Christmas last year, and soon when she's over them, they will be passed on to her little sister. Its like a saving money merry go round!!

I am really grateful for times like these, when P and I can watch our money and then blow some of it on having an amazing holiday with our family! This year we wished we could be home, but its definitely not happening this year. So it will be just us 3, and I don't see any harm in making it special. I don't know what it's like to grow up away from family, and sadly my girls will have to grow up that way. I want them to always know how special these holidays are, especially when we cannot be with family. I will teach my girls that Christmas is not just about gifts. Its about Jesus, Love and Family! Black Friday will never change that view for us. I'm glad I get to spoil my family, and we've worked hard to make sure we can.

If your shopping today, be careful out there. If not, I hope you enjoy those leftovers :)

And your point is?

Lately I have been really wrapped up in sales, discounts, coupon clipping, menu planning and present wrapping! Can you blame me? Thanksgiving is coming up very soon and right after that is Christmas! I like to finish my Christmas shopping early, and it seems like every year I start earlier and earlier. I'm pretty big into getting the best deal I can. If I was brave enough you would probably find me actually in line to get into stores on Black Friday... but instead you'll find me going through online sales and finding coupons to get my family their gifts.

As you can see I get really wrapped up in giving gifts to my family. I know the season is not all about gifts, but this is the one time of year I feel it is appropriate to spoil my family!

As I was searching through my shopping apps on my phone this morning, looking at weekly deals and coupons at my favorite stores, I remembered what P said to me last year about my shopping. He told me; "If you don't stop shopping, you won't be getting anything for Christmas."... and my reaction was the same as last years... "So?" But then as I was searching some more, I started to think about why P would actually want to buy me a present... I mean, I don't need anything. I don't want much either... other then baking pans. My gift is to spoil them rotten, because I love them so much! and then there! You see it? I realized... P feels the same way! He never gets to buy me anything because if I ever need anything, I go get it. I take care of Evelyn's presents, parties and her needs as well. I do all of that. If P needs something, I make sure to grab it too. This is also his one time of year he gets to spoil his wife. He may not be so into finding the perfect gifts for Evelyn, but when he gets the chance to shop for his wife, he does take it seriously.

P treats his girls very well! He sometimes gets frustrated when I buy Evelyn a gift she doesn't need, or a cute outfit that is so not necessary, but you'll almost never hear him complain about it. He works 12+ hours a day and just wants to relax on weekends, so he really doesn't ever get the chance to go all out for anything other then Christmas and my Birthday.

So as I am going through ads and such thinking of going out and shopping this week or next, I stopped myself and decided to throw some more money into our "extra money" account. Its money we put aside for occasions such as Christmas, Birthdays and Vacations. Its money for P to use to shop for me... and money I won't touch. I still want to spoil him rotten for Christmas... and just a hint... Online Black Friday shopping is so worth it! Especially on...Video Games. But I'm glad I stopped myself and realized how important this is for him too. I hope he enjoys it... I'm sure I'll enjoy receiving it :)

Potty Training... Its happening!!

I never thought this day would come... after at least 10 false alarms, and Evelyn thinking she was ready, and turning out to not be ready, its really here! Last Sunday, Evelyn insisted on using the potty so I took her to the bathroom... she went, and then she went again and again and again!! Words cannot describe the joy I felt knowing this was more then likely it! I really didn't think she'd want to do it for a while, and to be honest... I was mentally preparing to fly to Germany with two kids in diapers.

Its been over a week now since I have even touched a diaper! Not including pull-ups. I know in some situations pull-ups are no no's but Evelyn does not understand getting up and using the potty at night, and until she has control of her bladder, I'm not going force it.

I'm glad that I decided to take a step back and stop trying to force her into potty training... this is a huge step for her and she should be the one to make the decision to do it, not me or her Dad. Now that she's using the potty... almost like a pro, it makes me so proud to see her have made this decision.

I'm still cleaning up messes sometimes, and of course she's having an issue pooping in the potty, but I expected that. But I know we are on our way! I couldn't be prouder of my little one.

She's thrilled to keep her Minnie Mouse and Bubble Guppie panties dry, and gladly tells me she is dry when I ask her if she is. She also gets the hint that if she does good all day she gets to pick a treat from her Halloween bucket. Best use for Halloween candy I swear!

Now that she has this new found freedom... she also has decided to learn how to take clothes off, and at this point... I don't mind. I'm glad we aren't living in Utah though so she's not freezing!

32 Weeks!

Sorry for the lack of posts this week... someone became very interested in potty training this week, and I've been busy! But I'll write more on that later :)

I can't complain too much.... but I can. Its rough the last few weeks of being pregnant, and I'm pretty ready to be done. My hormones are all over the place, its hard getting up off the floor, chasing Evelyn is hard on my hips and did I mention I started to waddle? Its been a long pregnancy for me to say the least, and I'm ready to be done and meet our baby girl!

How far along: 32 weeks!

Total weight gain: I have gained 7 pounds from my pre-pregnancy weight.

Size and growth of the baby: According to my baby apps, she should be about 16 inches long, and about 3-4 pounds. Geeze!

Sex: It's a Girl!

Maternity clothes: I wear sweats and dresses... unless I have to wear regular pants.

Sleep: have to wake up to roll over, my hips pop when I roll.

Best moment(s) of the week: Evelyn became interested in the potty!

Food cravings/aversions: I haven't had steady cravings this pregnancy... it varies.

Morning sickness: GONE! WOO!

Labor signs: Braxton hicks.

Belly button in or out: In!

What I miss: regular sleep. No hip pains. 

What I'm looking forward to: MY next appointment. Thanksgiving menu planning.

 

 

 

Sick of it.

I really try to avoid writing posts about me being miserable in pregnancy. I know sometimes they come off as "ungrateful", or "whiney"... but that couldn't be further from the truth. I am so excited to expand our family and meet this little girl who refuses to leave my rib cage. So excited in fact that I am beyond sick of being pregnant.

I really seriously am.

I think I have had a pretty good pregnancy... could have been better at points, and it could have been worse, but all in all I'd call it a pretty normal one. But the last week... I am an emotional, hormonal, over reacting, nesting mess!! I seriously don't know how to handle it anymore.

I have SO many things coming up in the next month! Thanksgiving, P's Leave, Christmas, Anniversary, Baby being born... PLUS all the little things like finishing preparing for the baby and getting the things I will need when I have the baby. Nesting is a great thing.... but when your trying to find a happy budget medium to finish Christmas shopping before becoming a HUGE whale and buy all those other little things you need which of course none feel "inexpensive"... oh my lordy! My brain is going to explode!! Nesting this go around is a nightmare!

Did I mention how even my maternity clothes are starting to not fit... yepp. I have hit that awkward stage of not knowing my belly is hanging out in public sometimes. When I realize it all I can think about is what people must have been thinking!? I just want to constantly be in sweats... and even though I am not tired enough to want to be on the couch all day... I'd rather be on the couch.

Evelyn is in the midst of another HUGE power struggle with me... and I find myself losing my temper really fast and needing to walk away from her. I text P all the info while I bawl my eyes out feeling like there is no way in hell I can handle two kids... and then, Evelyn has one of those days... those oh so sweet days that make me feel like I can handle 5 kids. Terrible two's are definitely the worst thing I have had to go through in a while! I'd literally take a deployment over this crap!

Yesterday, after putting all my Halloween décor away, dealing with a refusing to nap toddler plus all the house work... when I got my Fall décor out, I found that I didn't seal the box from last year... found 4 cockroaches living in the box, their poop and they had been munching on some of my Styrofoam décor. It was the last thing to throw me over the edge from the day. I'm just already super hormonal and have a toddler who's fighting me on so many things, then to find out those nasty bugs were eating my stuff! Oh I called my Mom and just bawled! I'm so just ready to be back to being me again!

P and I had date night last night, and as much as I felt like I needed to get out of the house and do a big thing just us two... we settled on KFC and sitting on our couch watching The Walking Dead. It was bliss! When we picked Evelyn up, I felt so refreshed! We let her stay up a little later and we all sang our ABC's and some other songs. I just soaked it up.

I know I am bound to have some good and bad days for the next, hopefully only 9 more weeks. I know its a blessing to actually be carrying my child. I also know these are only temporary feelings I am having and pregnancy doesn't last forever. Even if it feels like it will. :)

Halloween!

Halloween is usually my favorite holiday! I have a ton of décor and my house is decked out. I'm always looking for ways to get more into the spirit of it all. It's such a unique holiday, which is why I love it so much! I'm curious how it will be in Germany next year :)

This year we actually had a lot going on! We had my churches trunk-or-treat, plus P's work's Halloween Party, Playgroups Halloween party and then Halloween! Evelyn ended up with so much candy, and I'm telling you, most of it will end up in the trash... I wish I had done the switch witch thing this year.

At my church's Halloween Party.

(ps. I got so many compliments on this shirt!)

A lot of people were confused about Evelyns costume... A LOT of people asked me if she was a ladybug. I guess that's what we get for going with the Original Minnie Mouse color of Red and not a traditional store bought costume.. also probably the fact she refused to wear her ears.

Other then that I thought Evelyn looked very adorable! this is her second time trick-or-treating and she was able to say the words "tick or treat!" and always made sure to say thank you! She knew exactly what she was doing, and nothing brings a smile to mine and P's faces more then seeing her really involved in something and enjoying it!

We had a moment during the night where she tripped and spilled some candy and Evelyn without skipping a beat said "Oh no! My candy!!" But after collecting her candy and putting it back in her bucket, she was off to the next house.

When we were done trick-or-treating we came and sat with P and passed out candy, Evelyn loved seeing everyone in their costumes! It was a really great night! I swear having kids makes Holidays so much more fun and important to me. I'm so glad Evelyn had a fun filled October and Halloween :)

Paranoia!

This has been kind of a rough last few weeks for me. As my due date approaches and nesting quickly sets in for me, I find myself feeling VERY unprepared. The girl has all the basic's and a few extras, and a few more things on the to-do list that aren't expensive.

This pregnancy is way different then when I was pregnant with Evelyn. With Evelyn, I was living at home, P was deployed, I could pretty much buy what I wanted with that extra money... so I was pretty prepared when I entered into the single week count down. This go around... I have been bargain shopping like a mad woman since I found out I was pregnant. I've gotten a lot of the things I need PLUS the added bonus of things I really wanted.

When I was pregnant with Evelyn, I had weird dreams all the time... this time, only a few here and there. But this time, I am having dreams about going into labor SUPER early. I'm talking like any day now type of early. I'm to the point where I almost feel the need to pack up a hospital bag it's freaking me out so badly.

I made arrangements with a good friend here and she's willing to take Evelyn whenever I go into labor. My Mom's flight is booked, and she'll be here a few days after Christmas. I only need a few more things for myself for the hospital and first few weeks, but I still can't shake this feeling I am having.

I hope its just me freaking out about becoming a mommy of two, and not a real serious thing. I know the dangers of having a baby earlier, especially in the colder months.

The funny thing about my dreams is that even though I am "in labor", no one believes me! Not even the hospital. I even find myself waking up from the dreams grasping onto a hard belly. I'm just not sure, and there is no way to even be sure!

P and I have been doing great and preparing my body for labor & delivery. Lots of stretching, lots of breathing exercises and when I'm up for it we go for a long walk. (usually I can't walk too long or far without some Braxton Hicks contractions). When I was pregnant with Evelyn, I avoided almost all of that, because I NEEDED P to be here for Evelyn's birth... worked out pretty good for us, since he was there. But I wonder if all this preparing will also make labor happen earlier this go around... I was over due by a day with Evelyn, and I was induced. This go around, no induction unless needed... and lets face it... I'm actually sexually active with my husband this go around... so who knows if that will stir anything up.

Now my belly and body are getting all nervous just thinking about it all! AHH!

I'm going to stop talking about it for now. Tomorrow I am 31 weeks. 9 more to go people!!

30 Weeks!

Yesterday I hit the big mark!! 30 weeks means a lot, because I am into single number weeks until this little girl arrives... hopefully! I'm hoping to not go past my due date again, but I'm sure I will. Its getting crazy real now! Her room is almost complete, I just need a few more random things for her and I am stoked!

I'm a little bummed that it seems like I won't be getting a shower this go around... I'm not sure if I feel like its tacky to have a shower for your second, but really it would have been helpful for a few things. But I have been lucky enough to find lots of great deals on used items, so I can't complain too much :)


How far along: 30 weeks!

Total weight gain: At my last appointment I am still -2 lbs.

Size and growth of the baby: According to my baby apps, she should be about 15 inches long, and about 3 pounds. Geeze!

Sex: It's a Girl!

Maternity clothes: I wear sweats and dresses... unless I have to wear regular pants.

Sleep: It varies night to night. But usually pretty good, with a few times getting up to use the restroom.

Best moment(s) of the week: Evelyn being in love with my belly :)

Food cravings/aversions: I haven't had steady cravings this pregnancy... it varies.

Morning sickness: GONE! WOO!

Labor signs: Braxton hicks and that's it.

Belly button in or out: In!

What I miss: regular sleep. No back pain.

What I'm looking forward to: The trunk or treat with Evelyn tonight, then one on Monday, and then Halloween!! This time of year is my favorite!!

 

The downside to Germany... for me.

The process of us moving to a new country has only just begun. We are in the baby stages, getting the little things done, preparing for the big things. Its a huge process to move, but move to another country... its a bigger list of things to do. I am getting excited about going, and although P has his hopes up about visiting every. single. place. I am being more realistic about it.

One thing that isn't far from my mind is being away from family. You see, I am a BIG family person. I always have adored my brothers and sister, niece and nephews, and as of growing out of that teenager attitude my parents fit into that category now. I am not very happy about missing out on lives and get togethers... I have been pretty lucky since getting married, that I have been home for some good events at home. Sadly I've missed a friends funeral, and a few family emergencies... and P's and mines goal was to move closer so that I could be more included on those things, especially while he is away.

I have had to come to the realization that moving to Germany, although it will be an amazing experience and I know it is a once in a lifetime opportunity, that I will miss out on things... a lot of things.

I have a Grandpa with Alzheimer's and I am positive that if he is not gone by the end of the 3 years in Germany, that he will have no idea who I am. I have become very close to my Grandpa in the last few years, and he has opened up to me a lot about his military experience in the Korean War. Its hard to think he may pass away while I am gone, or forget who I am. I've cried about that a few times. Its inevitable.

I know that I am lucky to move... but I don't think any move is that easy for anyone. You can be so excited... but there's always going to be that one downside. This is mine.

I don't like the thought of knowing when I get back that my nephew will be graduating high school... that my niece and nephew will be in high school! I'm missing out on huge points in their lives, and although they know their Aunt Lizzy, it really bothers me to know that I'll be missing out. My youngest nephew and Evelyn just adore each other... and they won't get that cousin experience I had growing up with my own cousins... and that sucks! The baby will be 3 when Germany is done, and although I am sure I'll make a few trips home, my brothers and the grandparents will be missing out on her growing up.

Thank god for technology.

I'm so glad that P and I are getting this experience, and so are our girls. Who would have thought that a little girl from a town in Utah would be moving to Europe! I certainly didn't see this in my future, but I am excited to have the experience.

I know it will be hard to be away.. and I'll have to find some great ways to be involved in the kid's lives, and it will be the same on their end. It's no fun to miss out on huge family events and even the sad events that happen. I always want to be there for my family, but I'm so glad they have all made it so much easier on me and are so supportive of us. Its going to be really hard, but I know it will work out, and hopefully nothing really bad happens while I am away. Maybe I'll get lucky and all of them will take a vacation to see us... haha yeah right! I can dream though can't I?

Finally Some Fun!

I have felt really bad the last few months. Summers in the South are seriously awful! The humidity is horrid, the heat is overpowering and unless you're getting in a body of water, its really not that great! I'll also be honest about something... I don't handle heat very well at all! I can't stand being stuck to my clothes, drinking so much water which then leads to peeing every 5 minutes. I just suck at Summer. On top of the regular summer issues, I was also pregnant this year... I've been pregnant in the summer before, but I was 7 months along by the time it started to get hot, and it didn't bother me one damn bit to not leave the house. Now I have Evelyn... so not leaving the house isn't always an option... but still, if we didn't get out early in the morning, or be going to the pool.. we didn't spend much time outside. I'm lucky she's two and doesn't really care. But still this summer wasn't a fun one.

Finally here in good ol' NC it has cooled down! I haven't seen the sun in maybe 2 weeks, and I don't care! Evelyn and I are out having fun almost every single day! Its been a blast to be out with her. I think P has been enjoying that we are getting out too.

The last few weekends we have had trips to the parks, pumpkin patches, painting pumpking, carving pumpkins... I mean really we have had fun! I'm even more so in the mood to get her doing more things indoors when I am busy cleaning or whatever else I need to do. You can definitely see a difference with Evelyn in how she feels.

I could really beat myself up about not being active this summer, but I can only do so much. Having morning sickness and chasing a toddler was ALOT! Plus keeping up on all my household duties... sometimes it just was hard enough to stay awake because I was so exhausted. I was lucky enough that P helped pick up the slack, and Evelyn was very patient in waiting for Mommy to feel better. Now that its cooler and I am feeling loads better, except for a few Braxton hicks here and there, we will be getting out lots more before baby comes and we are limited to doing too much again. I am so glad I can make things up to her as time goes on and she's just as happy as can be about it.

cherish the moments.

I gotta say... that title is something I have a very hard time doing, especially lately. I have been so frustrated with my toddler and her terrible twos that I am almost projecting them onto other people. I've even contemplated losing a few friends because I can't stand that they don't know how hard it is for me to have Evelyn all day and be pregnant.

I realize exactly how ridiculous that statement sounds. Lets face it, no one knows what goes on behind closed doors. Its no one's fault that Evelyn is testing boundaries and that I am tired and more easily frustrated then I usually am.

Yesterday was one of my hard days... and I tell you, it was bad. I was so frustrated that after punishing Evelyn and getting after her for not listening and just flat out horrible behavior, I just sat down and bawled my eyes out. Evelyn kept telling me that it was ok and that I was indeed crying, and it cheered me up a bit. Finally I text P and told him that I was quitting the day, that he would be coming home to a wife on the couch and a toddler in front of the TV. Luckily he was super nice about it, and just knew I needed to stop. I mean we all reach that breaking point at one point or another where we just need to stop. We need to do it for our own sanity! Nothing wrong with that either.

This morning I woke up, and while laying in bed checking FB and other social media sites I learned that a member of my church just found out her son has cancer. This little boy is maybe...7, they just moved away at are in Utah visiting family when they found out the news, and that he will be starting Chemo this morning. As I laid there thinking about them and how they must be feeling when I did what I think almost everyone does... you think about what if that was your child. The ache in your heart gets worse, your heart breaks for that family a little more, and then I realized how if I had just found out Evelyn was sick that I would have just had a horrible day with her where I wasn't happy with her and her behavior... and that made me sick to my stomach.

I know its ok to have moments with your child that aren't perfect, and that we all need down time and moments of relaxing when your child is just not behaving.

So after a moment to letting that settle in, I could hear Evelyn playing in her room, for once she didn't climb in my bed this morning, so I called for her to come to me and she came running in my room with the sweetest smile and said "hi mama!", I held my arms out to her and she jumped right into them, I brought her up into my bed and laid her next to me and began to tell her how much I loved her, and as she always does she respond with "you too *kiss*", and I told myself that today will be a better day, if not for me then for this family who has a long journey ahead of them.

28 Weeks!

Its been 8 weeks since my last update! WOOPS! dropped the ball this pregnancy.

How far along: 28 weeks!

Total weight gain: At my last appointment I am still -2 lbs.

Size and growth of the baby: Size of an Eggplant

Sex: It's a Girl!

Maternity clothes: I wear sweats and dresses... unless I have to wear regular pants.

Sleep: Its pretty much horrible now.

Best moment(s) of the week: Getting the room more put together.

Food cravings/aversions: Apple Pie. Milky Way. Pepsi.

Morning sickness: GONE! WOO!

Labor signs: Braxton hicks and that's it.

Belly button in or out: In!

What I miss: not waddling. and also feeling better, I've been sick all week.

What I'm looking forward to: finishing up her room soon!

 

How I ended up co-sleeping...

I have never wanted to co-sleep... I really didn't. When I was pregnant with Evelyn and I was living at home, my brother and his wife were co-sleeping with their son. I saw the good, the bad and all the in-between with co-sleeping. Because my nephew was almost one when I moved home, I didn't see it as a big deal...but the farther it went the more I saw it as an inconvenience. To this day my nephew is 3 1/2 and is still in bed with them. I've never ever minded Evelyn sleeping in bed with us on certain occasions such as her being sick or being on vacations. I just never wanted to have an older kid in bed with me.

When I first got pregnant with baby #2, I was seriously ex-haust-ed! no joke. I had never felt so tired in my life. Evelyn started getting up at 5:30 and when she would come into my room to get me, I'd pull her into bed with me, and she'd go straight back to sleep... here we are, I am now 28 weeks along and about 5am every morning, Evelyn is climbing in bed with me to sleep... and earlier if she can.

I haven't minded it. Its been nice having her there, she sleeps so well. But I also realize that with a new baby on the way and about to come into my room to sleep (in a bassinet), that having both my girls right there might not be so smart. I also don't want to let Evelyn think that her new sister is getting more attention, or that Mommy loves the new baby more then her. So I'm at a cross roads.

P is not a fan of Evelyn sleeping in bed with me after he leaves for work... and he's honestly not happy that the new baby will be in our room when she's first born. But its not his choice ;).... just kidding.

I am not 100% on what to do. I am sure that I need to talk Evelyn into going back into her own bed... but when I have done that, I felt bad, I miss my little baby and she'll only be my only child for less then 3 short months now. I just miss her. But I also don't want conflict when the baby comes, especially if I am not sleeping well, or the baby some how ends up in my bed and then I won't know Evelyn's in the bed as well... its so confusing!

I've given myself a little break... told myself to just love on Evelyn a little longer. I'll always want to love on her... but she's almost 2 1/2... which means she's almost 3! and soon... she wont want to cuddle me... and I cannot stand that thought. I don't know what I'll do but for now... I am just going to hold onto my little one a little longer.

Whats up with Evelyn.

I really truly believed for a long time that Evelyn was a perfect little angel. She has her good and bad days, but usually she's pretty good. I almost never had to punish her or practically beg her to pick up her toys. She did everything with a smile...

Fast forward a few months... Holy hell! Evelyn is still an amazing little girl, but she's in time out at least 3 times a day, usually for not listening. She's started her "drama queen" attitude, which is a total mirror image of who I was until I was 18 (woo), she also doesn't like to pick up toys... just for her to pick up her room it takes us about 15 minutes (max), to get her started, it usually hits the breaking point when she gets put in time out for hitting/running away from me. I really sometimes have no idea where that sweet little toddler went. P and I finally decided to put child locks on the doors so that she cannot enter any room she pleases and make messes. Her room also has one on it, so we can contain the messes.

For the most part though... I do have to say I have a little sweetheart. She is so in love with her Daddy and really in love with my belly. She is having a hard time learning boundaries with me now that I cannot be her trampoline, but I try to be very forgiving. I know how much her life is about to change and we are doing our best to prepare her for her Sissy.

I'm lucky enough that a few of my friends have had babies lately and I just love how in awe she is of all these little babies. She doesn't touch without permission and just says "awe how cute!", "its a baby!", "shhh she's sleeping". She's done great and I can only hope she'll keep it up with her new sibling. My mom reminds me though I might have to worry about her trying to mother her sibling, but I can't expect Evelyn to be a complete angel either. I'm sure we'll end up with some funny stories.

Evelyn is suddenly super interested in Pirates! I know that P is stoked that Evelyn will pick up sticks outside and they can have a little duel. She's completely in love with Hook, and screams every time he comes on Jake and the Neverland Pirates. But she's still very girlie and loves to dress up and is still in love with Minnie Mouse.

We started doing school time with her. We registered for ABCmouse.com and Evelyn has been really enjoying it! She is mainly focusing on her ABC's, animals and numbers. She used to really try with her colors and suddenly everything is now "ink!" to her, so I had that take a backseat, but still correct her if she calls her banana's, "ink".

Other then that, Evelyn is still a really great kid! She gets along so well with other children and is usually just so happy to be alive! She loves acting like a big kid, although she's super NOT interested in potty training, but we are working on it :) We are so blessed to have this little girl apart of our lives, I have high hopes for her future.

Making the Big Decision to move to Germany!

This is a big one for our family. It hasn't really been a secret that my husband hasn't been happy with the brigade he is in here at Fort Bragg. Since he finished Airborne school and got settled he has been even more unhappy with it, so since we've been here he's been plotting his way to get out of here. When we found out he would have to be here at least 2 years it kinda made life settle down a bit. Since his unit here is now disbanded and he's been dealing with a new brigade it's caused him to want to leave even more. So because his re-enlistment window opened and we are now expecting a baby I told him to do what he needs to do.

We were offered Germany and Alaska straight off the bat! I always knew I'd say yes to Alaska... but Germany? What a big opportunity... and a really scary one! I'm so close to my family, and the goal was to move closer to them... and Germany definitely isn't closer! After a few debates and a few discussions with a friend who's currently living there, we had decided to go for it, but when he went to tell them yes, Germany was off the table. He was disappointed and I even was a little bit. But I knew that P had more goals for his career and even though Germany is an amazing opportunity, there's not much excelling he really can do there... at least what he wants to do.

P decided he wanted to put in for it anyways and see if it got him anywhere, and if it didn't he would finish his Airborne contract (3 years) here at Bragg. Seemed reasonable to me, no moving after having a baby? Awesome! So that happened on a Monday, and I went about my week like normal... I was pretty confident that he wouldn't get it. I got a phone call on Thursday from P and this is how it went;

Me: Hello?
P: Hey! Guess what!!
Me: *thinking he's deploying*... great what now?
P: We are moving to Germany!
Me:....are you freaking kidding me?
P: Nope! I report in May!
Me: Oh shit.
P: You excited?
Me: Give me a few hours. I love you, congrats!
P: Love you too, thanks!

Yepp... I wanted to pass out. It took me a few hours to really process this. I have been excited to move again, but moving to another country? This is a whole new ballgame! I am obviously more excited now then I was for those few moments. I am ridiculously scared of being very far away from family and then something happening to someone. When we first got to Fort Bragg my little sister had 2 emergency surgeries, more crap went on with my little brother and my Grandpa's Alzheimer's got worse. I planned a trip home almost right after getting here, and if you followed my blog, I spent the whole summer in Utah, which was ok since P had trainings to go to anyways! So I'm a little hesitant to move, but knowing how excited my parents are to go to Europe is exciting me! I won't be the one not seeing family for 3 years and they have assured me, which makes me feel like 100x's better!

Its weird though.. I have babies and within months of them being born, I move. Evelyn moved twice in her first year of life! And now this baby will be born here in NC and then 4 months later we will be homeless visiting family and then off to Germany. I am however very happy that P is here and can make this move easy with two kids.

So now that I am excited I have been trying to learn all I can about where I am heading too... for one thing Germany is about $0.24 more expensive per USD, and it seems like you pay for almost everything... bathrooms, grocery carts, letting your kids play in the play area... I mean that's just a little much! But it's an experience, and I have yet to hear one person say they hated Germany... most tell me how much they miss it. So I'm embracing it. I know it will be hard to be far away... but I know that this is one of those once in a lifetime opportunities for us.

Its been about a month...

Hello everyone! I know, I know! Its been about a month since I last blogged... and I really haven't read blogs either...and I wont lie and act like I'll go back and read them because honestly if I don't have the time to blog, I don't have the time to read. But I'll hopefully be working blogging back into my life soon!

When I stopped blogging, I really thought I was done... I felt bad, but I think my time had been ending. But then my dear friend Jennie wrote me and said she was so sad that I hadn't been blogging and really enjoyed my writing... so I decided I should go ahead and try to blog at least once a week.

Since you last heard from me I hit the last week in my 2nd trimester with Baby V. Evelyn turned into a naughty two year old and we found out we will be PCSing to Germany in April! A lot can happen in a month huh!

Anyways... I have more to say and such... but thought I would stop in, say hi.. and I'll be back soon!

a weird trip home.

I have been in Utah the last two weeks and I gotta say...this is weird. I usually am all about being here, even though it's not technically home anymore, I still get a sense of peace being here.. suddenly like my life is normal again. Living on an Army Post, which I love BTW, I basically live and breathe Army life, so coming back to my hometown just makes me remember that not everyone's lives are crazy and hectic like mine.

This go around even though I have felt some peace and quite at home... its still weird. I am not even sure if its just because I haven't heard from my husband in a few weeks, or if its just the atmosphere. I am here and thinking of my sister and my good friend who have passed away. Thinking of my Grandpa who's Alzheimer's is getting worse, thinking of what life would be like if I ever really did move home ever again. I usually say that I will move back home if P ended up deploying again, especially since the kids are young... or unborn, and I would be so far away from family support... but the more I am here the more I realize that I don't think I want to. I like being treated as a guest anyways, so why live here when I could randomly visit and get all that attention.

I guess our lives just change so much while we are away and growing up into our own adulthood and parenthood. I've outgrown the idea of living at home unless I really needed to. I love my life in NC, still not a fan of P's unit but hey I am finally finding some good friends and its been a long time coming. I'm really growing up.

being a SAHM

At the current moment I am processing how to deal with someone. I told this person that it was irresponsible of them to try and get "unemployment" just because they simply don't want to work anymore. They then followed up with me by saying that "I had no room to talk since I live off my husband"...

Now I know from being a SAHM that we all come under fire at one point or another... but I don't understand why. Let me point out first that yes my husband makes the money that pays the bills and puts the food on the table, that is totally true! But... I wonder if this person ever thought about the reason why I stay home. Does it ever occur to them that the reason why I stay home is so our children have at least one parent who is steadily in their lives?

Most MilSpouses are SAHM's or they work from home... no harm in that at all. We live a life that can be uprooted at any moment. We have spouses who deploy sometimes every other year! So is that awful for me to stay home? Absolutely not!

If P and I could not afford for me to stay home with our children, I would gladly get a job. But we make it work! I do the majority of the housework, I take care of Evelyn all day long, I make meals, do grocery shopping, run errands and try to maintain a budget for our family. I try my hardest to make sure that when my husband comes home from a very long day, that he has very little to worry about. Is that bad?

Now yes I told this person off about trying to get fired so she could make unemployment. She doesn't really have a reason other then she wants to be home with kids. Sure that's fine! I completely understand this reasoning. But... she can't afford it. Clearly this is the issue! Its not that I don't think she shouldn't want to stay home with her kids, but that she simply wants to government to pay for her to not work because she chooses this. I don't think that's fair, and I'll be damned if I don't tell her that its wrong. I'll also be dammed if I let her think that every SAHM is a lazy piece of junk.

I know that not every SAHM is a perfect one. Some are the perfect Judy Cleavers and some are really just doing what they can. I like to think I fit myself in the middle of those. I have my good days and my bad. Especially being pregnant, my first thought isn't always what's for dinner...its usually what will I not throw up and how can I sneak in a nap and get the bare minimum of chores done.

I still just don't understand why SAHM's are so hated. Is it because everyone wishes they could stay home? Do they truly believe we are just that lazy? I don't really know... but I know that this is a choice my husband and I made together as a family. I did not wake up and say "I am done working! I am gonna sit at the TV and waste my life away."... believe me sometimes I wish I had a job so I could have some social interaction with someone else besides a two year old. But at the end of the day, I love being a SAHM, I love cleaning, cooking, and best of all raising my daughter(s) and teaching them all about life.

As a SAHM who's also a MilSpouse, I think it's important for me to be home. Because lets face it, deployments, separations and hell even field problems are hard on our children. They miss the other parent and its hard to play both rolls when the other one is away. Not every one can stay home and I think that's even harder to play mom and dad and also be a working parent, and I give props to those that can do it. But I am glad that whenever P has to leave that I know my children will know Mom is here whenever they need me, especially while they are very young.

So even though I really said a lot of things to this person... and was even a little curseful and mean, I still wish that they would think about what they said to me. I am 100% positive I did the right thing by not encouraging her to get fired on purpose to make unemployment... but I hope she know's she's wrong for telling me that "I live off my husband"... My husband never makes me feel like I live off of him. We know we are a family unit and this is what our lives are like right now and we are ok with it. If the day ever comes when I need to get a job, believe me I will, but until then I want to enjoy this time and not feel scrutinized for choosing this.

The day I took this photo.

I look at this photo and smile. Really... its my kid in a cart with a bunch of things and Evelyn is crying. Most people would assume that Evelyn is exhausted and wants to get out of her cart. But what really happened was Evelyn did amazing all day! We went to the consignment sale, an hour early to make sure we'd end up with a shopping cart. Evelyn enjoyed looking at all the toys, helping me along the way and playing doctor with my necklaces. Until I saw this shopping cart... and I just knew I had to grab it! $5 was a steal to me since all the ones I've seen are $20 or more and because I know how much Evelyn loves shopping carts and baby strollers I picked it up for Christmas and the moment I did she wanted that cart. She bawled and bawled, and considering this was my very last thing I picked up you can only see the sadness on her face from knowing she had been so good but still had to wait to play with her new toy. Mommy saying "hunny its ok! I promise you, you can play with it later" was even worse for her. Its really the simple things in life that make kids happy. I did allow her to play with it when we got home, I mean seriously how could I not, she was so good for 2 whole hours! Its such a cute picture that I will cherish forever. Its the simple things in life for kids.

20 Weeks!

I am over the hump you guys! Hopefully in 20 more weeks this little girl will be here!

How far along: 20 weeks!

Total weight gain: I still don't know.

Size and growth of the baby: size of a Banana!

Sex: It's a Girl!

Maternity clothes: I pretty much just wear maternity clothes or regular long tanktops.

Sleep: Depends on the night. Either its awesome, or its horrible and tossing and turning all night.

Best moment(s) of the week: feeling her kick from the outside.

Food cravings/aversions: not really anything... sometimes I really feel the need for a Dr. Pepper.

Morning sickness: Gone again... we will see how that lasts.

Labor signs: None at all!

Belly button in or out: In!

What I miss: Having a ton more energy! No pain in my hips/vagina.

What I'm looking forward to: Going to Utah in a week. Also having another ultrasound done.

 

 

 

 

While P is away...

weeks before P left for JRTC, I was saying how nice it would be to not have to worry about picking up his sweaty PT clothes, getting all the pillows to myself at night, have girl nights with Evelyn and ya know so on and so forth... I am pretty sure I was just fooling myself. Lets face it, as nice as it is to not have to pick up his nasty PT stuff... I do miss him. Its easier with Evelyn, because really its not any different other then P doesn't come home at the end of the day. So when the day is said and done, Evelyn is in bed and its just me... its lonely.

I feel bad that I even told P that I was looking forward to being alone... I don't really mind being alone, but really... it gets old. Fast. But its not like I have a choice in the matter.

I mentioned in my last post that I was having a hard time functioning, probably has a little to do with pregnancy and some mild depression. Since P left... I have been deep cleaning my home. I mean I'd love to move my furniture, but that's clearly not going to happen. But I am a cleaning machine! and I like it! I think I missed being a houseywifey. Its been nice and Evelyn is back to being so helpful with it. Its like Mom never took like 10 week break from her job.

Its also been my goal to prepare for baby as much as I can... but I realize that's not just going to happen. I can at least get the room pretty cleared out... but I have to back off and realize not everything will be perfect. I wish I could give little baby L, everything I had for Ev when she was born... but we were in different circumstances. Thank goodness I am breastfeeding so I don't have to worry too much about feeding things, and I have my pump, crib and bassinet still! That is enough for the first few weeks and I know it.

I like how this post is much better then my last one. :)

I have failed.

I have really been failing at a lot lately. Seems like since I got pregnant and maybe even a bit before that my brain went on a downward spiral. I stopped cooking more then a couple times a week.. and usually that was grilled meat. I stopped cleaning my house, I literally went a month without cleaning my bathroom and vacuuming my floors. I stopped blogging, because I felt like I was boring and couldn't be cleaver.

I just keep repeating to myself what a failure I am. A lot of things have been going on in my personal life, I'm having a very hard time not being near my family back in Utah... and even though I am headed there in 2 weeks, I'm not even sure I want to go and deal with everything going on.

P hasn't been very helpful with my self esteem about being a failure. I am sure he thinks its just a thing I am going through... but really its a little bigger then he thinks. Its no fun being someone who has suffered with depression, OCD and PTSD for many years on and off.. and slowly but surely its all coming back to me. I know my triggers, I've been to therapy most of my life, I've even been in treatment for depression... but still at least once a day I find myself blasting a sad song so I can just bawl my eyes out.

I am not very good at not having plans in life, and one thing the Army does not allow you to have is plans! At least set in stone plans... because the moment you think its all set... they come creeping in and laugh in your face.

I'm really stressed about the baby. Not to the point where anyone should be worried for the baby or myself... but I am stressed. Since this was unplanned, I find myself drowning in everything I need... which I have done this before, babies don't need much the first few months of life. I'm not worried about bumbos, exersausers, baby bouncers or nothing like that. I'm worried about the crib sheet that I have yet to purchase, decorating her room, and how the hell I am going to deal with a toddler and a newborn. I try to remember that it will all fall into place, and my Mom will be here the first few weeks and that will be so helpful... but you won't find me not worrying anytime soon until that baby is here and that room is organized and put together.

My PTSD is back... most of you know the history I've had with it. I suffer from it because of sexual abuse from a close family member. Its not like an uncle or someone simple I can cut out of my life so easily... he will probably always be around even if no one wants anything to do with him. That's because, its one of my brothers. He is in prison right now, for different charges, and is expected to be released soon. My mother is the only one who keeps in contact with him, and call me protective or curious but I feel like every once in a while I need to know where he is. Maybe its because I know what type of person he is and what he is capable of. But its also very helpful and unhelpful to me... last time I delt with this, I was pregnant with Evelyn and he wasn't in prison yet. This time he is getting out and I feel a very strong urge to protect my daughters and myself. Even if I'm, what? 3,000 miles away. He still gets to me.

I hate how bad I've let life slip for me. I realize cleaning and cooking aren't such big issues. But being that I am a housewife, its my job, and it makes my husband a little upset to learn that I didn't do anything all day and the house is a mess and now he feels obligated to help after a long day at work. Most of it is probably because I had morning sickness and was exhausted for a long time... and seems like the closer I get to the 20 week mark... the better I am feeling. I still don't like cooking, but cleaning is much easier! But still cooking a healthy meal VS. ordering a pizza should be high on my list... and for some reason, I just can't. It makes me feel like a failure as a wife and mom to not be able to do these things for my family... but its just how it is right now.

I know this is only going to get harder when the baby arrives too, and because I am a past suffered of depression (and probably currently suffering from it now), I am also a risk to have Post Pardom Depression... and meds and breastmilk aren't good.

Anyways... If you've stuck around long enough to read this... you're pretty awesome. Thanks for reading about my current life situation. I know everything will get better and that I am just all out of wack right now, but man... I am really looking forward to being back to good old Liz again.

Zoo Day!

This weekend was a 4 day for P, some sort of training holiday.. or AKA lets take a few days off. Seems like lately our weekends fill up fast and go by fast, and with P getting ready to leave for a little bit, and a baby on the way it seems like life is just going by fast! I'm not too sure how I feel about it, but I'm trying to soak it up as much as I can.

On Monday it was P's morning to sleep in, while he slept Ev and I watched some morning cartoons and picked up the house a bit. Suddenly P comes out of the room and says "Let's go to the Zoo today"... so of course because I know how much she LOVES the Zoo, I said Ok. Suddenly the diaper bag was packed and we were all ready to go and off we went! The trip to the Zoo was 2 hours and luckily Evelyn took a little nap on the way to the Zoo.

P has never gone with us to the Zoo before. Every time I have taken Evelyn, we have been in Utah and either P wasn't with us or he was only there a short amount of time.

The NC Zoo is pretty nice. In Utah the exhibits are pretty close so its not a huge Zoo.. but this Zoo has a ton of walking! Up hill, down hill, side hills, front hills... you get the picture right? They even have a tram! Came in handy for me since the Zoo is split into two parts. Let me just say walking for 5 hours with a hard belly and a little girl in-between your hips can get tiring! and I am not even that far along! We didn't have to take more then maybe 2 breaks though so not too bad.

Evelyn was just in love with the Giraffes, Sea Otters and the Polar Bear. She loves Elephants too, but the thing with a big Zoo is that they have bigger habitats for the animals, great for them.. but not so great for my little 2 year old. The Elephant was far enough away to Evelyn that she couldn't see and has its back turned to us. Such a bummer! They also had a dinosaur exhibit and Evelyn LOVED the thing. She was in awe of the dinosaurs and wasn't scared at all. But Evelyn did not like the Triceratops.. as soon as it made a noise, she darted straight to Dad. But T-Rex... no biggie.

But it was very much a fun day for the family! Something perfect to end the weekend, right before P leaves us for a few weeks. Heres a few pictures of the day.

18 weeks!

I'm just going to stop apologizing for not blogging. I got stuff going on and I just haven't had the time.

How far along: 18 weeks!

Total weight gain: I don't have another appointment for a few weeks, but last time it was -12 pounds.

Size and growth of the baby: according to TheBump.com the baby should be the size of a sweet potato.

Sex: It's a Girl!

Maternity clothes: Fully in maternity pants, and now I am in maternity tanks.

Sleep: Sleep is awesome...when P is not in bed with me. Apparently I need all 4 pillows. I usually wake up once to pee, and usually at 2am I am awake from no reason at all.

Best moment(s) of the week: finding out that this little one is a girl!

Food cravings/aversions: Peach cobbler a little bit. Not really having consistent cravings.

Morning sickness: It was gone... but it came back this morning.

Labor signs: None at all!

Belly button in or out: In!

What I miss: Hmm, probably naps whenever I wanted them... but that wouldn't work anyways because I have Evelyn. HAHA. But I do miss not being so tired. I also seriously miss walking normally, I have a waddle sometimes now because this girl is so low. My hips also pop on a daily basis!

What I'm looking forward to: P's 4 day weekend! Also maybe buying something for this little ones wall.

 

 

A little baby gender announcment!

Well recently P and I decided to go to a privet ultrasound tech and find out what this little one was. P will be at JRTC when I am 20 weeks, so instead of him missing out on more things we decided to just find a place to go to together. Plus I mean once you know the baby's gender can be revealed I personally think its so hard to not to find out.

Mostly everyone thought it was going to be a boy... and that made me feel bad. I mean Evelyn even said it was a boy. So because I didn't have a clue what it was going to be I decided I'd vote for a girl.

We first saw this little one and the first thing I noticed.... looks exactly like how Evelyn looked like. Evelyn's ultrasounds she had her Dad's profile completely. I was shocked to see how much they looked alike! Another thing.. the baby was sleeping, and apparently had no real intention of waking up.

I stared at P a lot, and even though he was dealing with a toddler who just wanted Mom to stop getting prodded by the lady, he was still in awe watching this little baby move.

waving Hi and waking up for a little nap!

 

Finally the lady decided to look at the sex. I guess even though this little one was sleeping, they made sure we could get a good peek at the goods. While I don't really feel comfortable showing off my baby's stuff... this is our Gender Announcment on FB.

 



When I first saw the legs open and then saw nothing, the first thing I said was "Oh my god P its a girl!". I looked right at him and he had the biggest smile on his face. I laughed in disbelief! I was not sure at all on what I was having, and to find out I was going to be a mommy to two little girls blew my mind!

It took us a moment to finally realize it was a real thing! Two girls! WOAH! I became immediately excited! My sister died when I was 10 and I never had a real sister relationship, and that's always made me a little sad. But I just knew right then and there that this was so ment to be! I get to watch my girls have a beautiful friendship together, and I can't wait to see it blossom! I sometimes think my sister has a hand in certain things in my life, and I'm sure her and God knew I had always wanted that sisterly relationship, and this is the next best thing.

My two little girls!! I cannot wait!

Evelyns Birthday!

Hey you guys! Sorry it took me so long to get to this! Evelyn got really sick on Monday and was running a high fever for a few days, and just started feeling better today.

Evelyn had such a fun Birthday! Last year P was graduating Airborne School, and I was in Utah with my family. So it was nice to all be together this year. Evelyn woke up and came straight into our room bright and early at 6am! We put her into our bed and cuddled our new little two year old. Its one of those times where life just seems to be perfect! 2 years has flown by and it feels like we just brought her home from the hospital.

P had insisted we spoil Evelyn and get her some donuts for her birthday, so off he went to get Evelyn some fresh Krispy Kream's. When P returned we gave Ev her chocolate frosted donut with Sprinkles and placed 2 candles ontop and sang Happy Birthday to her! She just really didn't understand what the heck we were doing.

After breakfast we had Evelyn open up a few presents. Lucky girl got spoiled rotten! I've mentioned before that I had been working on her toddler room...and this was that final finishing piece to her room. Her new bedding for her big girl bed! Seriously... you cannot go wrong with giving your kid bedding. Evelyn was so excited to get her Minnie Mouse bedding and on top of that, she got a Minnie Mouse pillow pet from my parents.

I'll have to do her bedroom reveal next week sometime. It looks great!

Evelyn had her party on her birthday too and we were so glad we had so many people come to her party! Evelyn loved running around with all the kids!

One of my wonderful friends made this cake for Evelyn.

 



It was a wonderful day!

Evelyn is the biggest blessing to us and our family. She has the sweetest spirit about her! We couldn't be more proud to be this little angels parents. She really is amazing!

Birthday Girl!

I cannot believe that 2 years ago, I was giving birth to a little girl! That I was lucky enough to have my husband by my side, and start our lives together as a family of 3. We have always felt incredibly blessed to have Evelyn be apart of our lives, she has made our lives so much better and our marriage even stronger! I honestly don't think God could have given us an anymore perfect child. She's got an amazing personality and is just full of life! She loves to adventure but she also loves to hang out and just be with us. She's loved and cared for by so many people and she loves them back just as much! She's so friendly with almost everyone she comes in contact with.

 Evelyn Day 1. First photo.

One of my favorite phases she says now is when I ask her how old she's going to be, she'll whisper back "Nine".

She can tell you where her head, mouth, toes, nose, elbow, eyes and ears are. She knows some of her animal sounds but she prefers the ones that say "RAWR!". Her favorite Disney character at the moment is Minnie Mouse!

1st Birthday Party!

I cannot wait to see how this year turns out for my little girl! She's embarking on a huge journey to be a big sister and by the way she already rubs my belly, and proclaims that its a "ooy!" Just makes my life! I can't wait to see how she does once the little one arrives.

Happy Birthday Evelyn! We love you move then words! Have a wonderful fantastic day!