Thursday, March 31, 2011
Day 28
Day 28 – post a picture of the band that sings the song of your significant other’s ring tone while they are away..(usually a military themed song like "wait for me")
Ok to be honest...my ringtone is the Harry Potter song LOL. But when he is home, his ringtone was Forever Love By : Francesca Battistelli
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Day 27
Aside from my other post of the day, I am almost done with this 30 week blog challenge. I hope you all enjoyed my answers even when I did answer some of them wrong or weird! HAHAHA. Thank you all for the support on my blog, it really means a ton!! I love my bloggy friends!!
Day 27 - post a picture of something that reminds you of your SO and tell why it does.
Yepp! ACU's...you'd think because there technically isnt an Army Post in Utah, I'd probably never see these...but I actually do. Not constantly like you do at the Army Posts I know, but its very rare I go a month without seeing at least 6 guys in ACU's. I am sure they are National Guard, and there is a place called Dugway Proving Grounds, which is ran like an Army Post about an hour away from where I live, plus Tooele Army Depot which is like 4 miles away from my house. But I see these....also this movie totally reminds me of my husband....
Yeah...Steve Martin's character in this movie is EXACTLY like how my husband acts and thinks! Its insane. But it makes me laugh so much! Make me wonder how he will act when our little girl gets married...but thats a bazillion years from now! ;)
Day 27 - post a picture of something that reminds you of your SO and tell why it does.
Yepp! ACU's...you'd think because there technically isnt an Army Post in Utah, I'd probably never see these...but I actually do. Not constantly like you do at the Army Posts I know, but its very rare I go a month without seeing at least 6 guys in ACU's. I am sure they are National Guard, and there is a place called Dugway Proving Grounds, which is ran like an Army Post about an hour away from where I live, plus Tooele Army Depot which is like 4 miles away from my house. But I see these....also this movie totally reminds me of my husband....
Yeah...Steve Martin's character in this movie is EXACTLY like how my husband acts and thinks! Its insane. But it makes me laugh so much! Make me wonder how he will act when our little girl gets married...but thats a bazillion years from now! ;)
Dear Anoymous
**for those who dont know, this is concerning a comment I received on my blog post titled "3rd Post"**
I dont know who you are...obviouslly you dont have the guts to tell me. I dont know why you think I complained about being pregnant. I feel very blessed to be pregnant, considering I have 4 or 5 family members who do have fertility problems. Any new mom is terrified to fail their child, to have their child go through things they themselves have personally gone through.
I have been raped 3 times, and molested by my family member. Is it so hard for me to be scared that my child may have to face the same things? No its not. Its a fear every parent has to deal with. I have to face those fears head on and even though those fears enter my mind, I have to know how to handle it.
I dont believe I owe any sort of explanation to someone who wont put a face to their name. I do feel bad for you for being so bitter to me. I thought I would write this and tell you to fuck off, like so many of my other friends in the blogging world did. But I believe by showing you that I am better then to write someone mean hurtful things without knowing them on a personal note. This is a letter to kill with kindness.
I am currently on my 2nd, 12 month deployment in 3 years...I have every right to feel lonely. I may have my family, but given the family drama that I am currently dealing with..they arnt there. If you were a regular reader of mine, you would maybe understand that.
Like I said...I am sorry your so bitter to someone you don't know. I'm sorry you don't want to put a face to the mean hurtful comment you made to me. But I'm better then that. I do wish you many blessings, but I hope before you recive them, you count your blessings and be grateful for what you have. Even though I have hard times, I am grateful for everything I have.
-Elizabeth, The Optimistic Army Wife
I dont know who you are...obviouslly you dont have the guts to tell me. I dont know why you think I complained about being pregnant. I feel very blessed to be pregnant, considering I have 4 or 5 family members who do have fertility problems. Any new mom is terrified to fail their child, to have their child go through things they themselves have personally gone through.
I have been raped 3 times, and molested by my family member. Is it so hard for me to be scared that my child may have to face the same things? No its not. Its a fear every parent has to deal with. I have to face those fears head on and even though those fears enter my mind, I have to know how to handle it.
I dont believe I owe any sort of explanation to someone who wont put a face to their name. I do feel bad for you for being so bitter to me. I thought I would write this and tell you to fuck off, like so many of my other friends in the blogging world did. But I believe by showing you that I am better then to write someone mean hurtful things without knowing them on a personal note. This is a letter to kill with kindness.
I am currently on my 2nd, 12 month deployment in 3 years...I have every right to feel lonely. I may have my family, but given the family drama that I am currently dealing with..they arnt there. If you were a regular reader of mine, you would maybe understand that.
Like I said...I am sorry your so bitter to someone you don't know. I'm sorry you don't want to put a face to the mean hurtful comment you made to me. But I'm better then that. I do wish you many blessings, but I hope before you recive them, you count your blessings and be grateful for what you have. Even though I have hard times, I am grateful for everything I have.
-Elizabeth, The Optimistic Army Wife
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
3rd Post
I appreciate everyone who is still reading my blog, I know I have two posts a day at most points and they arnt personal posts. I felt a huge need to blog right now, because I'm currently fighting depression again.
Things at home are awful. I miss my husband. I'm nervous, scared, and excited to be a mom. I dont have many friends right now.
I know this might seem to everyone like another bitch blog, which is not what I am gonna try and turn it into. I just honestly cant keep turning to my parents when I am in need.
I always know life could be harder...but right now, I just dont know how I am even surviving right now. I have friends but not ones I hang out with, its not that the few I have, that we dont try to...some how it turns into lets do something on a certain day, the certain day comes around and then it just doesnt happen. I dont blame them, and I dont blame myself...life happens.
Things at home with my brother are awful. Seriously awful. He has done these things and is out of jail...and to make matters worse...he is living at home again. I constantly feel a need to watch my back and hide my purse, lock my bedroom door. I'm running out of steam, and I cant.
I miss my husband. You all know how this feels, its hard as hell. I'm pregnant, and even though I'm not technically alone, I feel alone. I tell my husband everything, but I've notcied myself telling him the exact same things all the time now. I cant help but feel like if he was home I'd be living my life and not floating waiting for life to begin again.
I'm really excited to be a mom, I swear. But I'm so scared to fail her. I dont want her to ever get hurt, and I find myself saying she'll never do anything wrong, which in my head I know will never be true. I even find myself wondering if I'd want to put more kids through deployments.
Guess this turned into a bitch blog. Sorry....just running out of options. I have no idea how to make myself feel better.
Things at home are awful. I miss my husband. I'm nervous, scared, and excited to be a mom. I dont have many friends right now.
I know this might seem to everyone like another bitch blog, which is not what I am gonna try and turn it into. I just honestly cant keep turning to my parents when I am in need.
I always know life could be harder...but right now, I just dont know how I am even surviving right now. I have friends but not ones I hang out with, its not that the few I have, that we dont try to...some how it turns into lets do something on a certain day, the certain day comes around and then it just doesnt happen. I dont blame them, and I dont blame myself...life happens.
Things at home with my brother are awful. Seriously awful. He has done these things and is out of jail...and to make matters worse...he is living at home again. I constantly feel a need to watch my back and hide my purse, lock my bedroom door. I'm running out of steam, and I cant.
I miss my husband. You all know how this feels, its hard as hell. I'm pregnant, and even though I'm not technically alone, I feel alone. I tell my husband everything, but I've notcied myself telling him the exact same things all the time now. I cant help but feel like if he was home I'd be living my life and not floating waiting for life to begin again.
I'm really excited to be a mom, I swear. But I'm so scared to fail her. I dont want her to ever get hurt, and I find myself saying she'll never do anything wrong, which in my head I know will never be true. I even find myself wondering if I'd want to put more kids through deployments.
Guess this turned into a bitch blog. Sorry....just running out of options. I have no idea how to make myself feel better.
24 WEEKS
SERIOUSLY! WOAH. Yeah 24 weeks!! I am going fast and in 16 weeks Hubby will be here!!! Well...I think we all know thats a guesstamite. I started putting up Baby Loves things, such as her portacrib, which she'll have to sleep in for 3 months till Daddy gets home and we can go crib shopping together. OH and I'm stoked...my sister in law gave me her Medela Breast Pump! I just have to replace the hoses which is a 50 dollar investment, but those Medela's are (in my opinion) the best pumps and are SUPER expensive! I'm so happy she gave it to me! Used or not, those pumps are worth the money!
How far along: 24 Weeks.
Total weight gain: still at -20 pounds
Size and growth of the baby: Heres my Update from Baby Center.Com
Sex: Little Angel.
Maternity clothes: Wearing them...loving them! not sure I'll wanna give them up.
Sleep: Tired at 6pm...go to bed at 10pm. Sleep till 8am. Toss and Turn all night.
Best moment(s) of the week: Being able to tell whats a punch and whats a kick.
Movement: I got a boxer in my belly!
Food cravings/aversions: Latley...Bacon and Pickles.
Morning sickness: Had my morning sickness back for a week and its gone again.
Symptoms: Kicking, Punching, Cravings!
Labor signs: none.
Belly button in or out: In..but getting closer.
What I miss: my husband missing out on this.
What I'm looking forward to: My doctors appointment next week...after that I go every two weeks!
How far along: 24 Weeks.
Total weight gain: still at -20 pounds
Size and growth of the baby: Heres my Update from Baby Center.Com
Your baby's growing steadily, having gained about 4 ounces since last week. That puts her at just over a pound. Since she's almost a foot long (picture an ear of corn), she cuts a pretty lean figure at this point, but her body is filling out proportionally and she'll soon start to plump up. Her brain is also growing quickly now, and her taste buds are continuing to develop. Her lungs are developing "branches" of the respiratory "tree" as well as cells that produce surfactant, a substance that will help her air sacs inflate once she hits the outside world. Her skin is still thin and translucent, but that will start to change soon.
Sex: Little Angel.
Maternity clothes: Wearing them...loving them! not sure I'll wanna give them up.
Sleep: Tired at 6pm...go to bed at 10pm. Sleep till 8am. Toss and Turn all night.
Best moment(s) of the week: Being able to tell whats a punch and whats a kick.
Movement: I got a boxer in my belly!
Food cravings/aversions: Latley...Bacon and Pickles.
Morning sickness: Had my morning sickness back for a week and its gone again.
Symptoms: Kicking, Punching, Cravings!
Labor signs: none.
Belly button in or out: In..but getting closer.
What I miss: my husband missing out on this.
What I'm looking forward to: My doctors appointment next week...after that I go every two weeks!
Day 26
Day 26 - post a picture of your mans military branch and tell your favorite stay strong quote
The Army Wife Prayer
Dear Lord,
Give me the greatness of heart to see the difference between duty and his love for me. Give me understanding that I may know, when duty calls him he must go. Give me a task to do each day, to fill the time when he's away. And Lord, when he's in a foreign land, keep him safe in your loving hand. And Lord, when duty is in the field, please protect him and be his shield. And Lord, when deployment is so long, please stay with me and keep me strong. Amen."
Give me the greatness of heart to see the difference between duty and his love for me. Give me understanding that I may know, when duty calls him he must go. Give me a task to do each day, to fill the time when he's away. And Lord, when he's in a foreign land, keep him safe in your loving hand. And Lord, when duty is in the field, please protect him and be his shield. And Lord, when deployment is so long, please stay with me and keep me strong. Amen."
Author: anonymous
Monday, March 28, 2011
Day 25
Day 25- Favorite moment or experience you have had with the military
HANDS DOWN....RE-DEPLOYMENT!
took him to the Oakland Raiders VS Kanas City Chiefs game a few days after he got home...ya the Raiders won!!!
HANDS DOWN....RE-DEPLOYMENT!
took him to the Oakland Raiders VS Kanas City Chiefs game a few days after he got home...ya the Raiders won!!!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Day 23 and a Post
Oops guess I am really here...things not going good still but I am doing my best to support my family, counting the days till I can finally move back into my own house. I'm really too excited for something that is going to happen in 5 months. EEK!!! :)
Day 23 - Post a picture and tell what your life would be like without your SO.
-----I dont really know how to answer this. If I never knew him, I'd never know what I was missing...and I'm sure lots of the things going on right now wouldn't be happening. Less or different family drama, no preparing for my little love, and no deployment.....weird! (which she is kicking me like crazy so I dont think she likes that idea)
and if I knew him and just werent together....I'm sure I'd know he was in Iraq and be worried and all sorts of things....this is just one thing I cant answer. I already went without him, for a month at one point and it didnt work....so I honestly cannot answer this.
By the way...I feel like such a DUMBASS the last 2 days I answered my questions wrong. Excuse my stupidity! hahahaha.
Day 23 - Post a picture and tell what your life would be like without your SO.
-----I dont really know how to answer this. If I never knew him, I'd never know what I was missing...and I'm sure lots of the things going on right now wouldn't be happening. Less or different family drama, no preparing for my little love, and no deployment.....weird! (which she is kicking me like crazy so I dont think she likes that idea)
and if I knew him and just werent together....I'm sure I'd know he was in Iraq and be worried and all sorts of things....this is just one thing I cant answer. I already went without him, for a month at one point and it didnt work....so I honestly cannot answer this.
By the way...I feel like such a DUMBASS the last 2 days I answered my questions wrong. Excuse my stupidity! hahahaha.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Mom In Law..
Shes coming. I made myself a list of things Hubby and I had to agree on before we would concider bringing her out here. I know to him it looks like I pick my family over his, which is something thats hard for me not to do....but I am working on it.
We had to agree that she would know she cannot smoke her pot in my house. My brother is on probation, and I wont risk his freedom so she can get high. This was one of my rules when she came to visit us in Riley, Hubby can get discharged for that, and I dont bend that rule at all! I hate drugs. Also No drinking, I hate alcohol too, Hubby has a problem with alcohol that he still wont admit to...and though I wont get into details...his last little drinking experience cost us a ton of money!
It was a bunch of things that we had to agree on, but I think we got it figured out. One thing Hubby had to know was the reason why my mom was invited into the room, is because she is going to the birthing classes with me...Hubby sadly cant, so my mom needs to be in the room to help me remember. If hubby could have gone to classes I wouldnt invite my mom in. Sadly I dont know if I'm really gonna want his mom in there. I know its my choice...but how rude and bitchy would I look if I kicked her out. Hopefully she doesnt piss me off, I already told Hubby I wont put up with whiney bitchyness from ANYONE in the room....HAHA if you cant tell I am really taking this super serious.
So I guess thats the decision...Hubby is gonna talk to his Mom about it more, and even though she cannot afford to fly herself to Utah, I told hubby she probably wont get to see Baby Love till she is at least a year old next time, and shes going to have to be ok with that. My parents already have 2 trips planned to visit and they are paying their own ways, so it cant be nit picky like he thinks it is...plane tickets are expensive! and we just cant afford to do this all the time.
Hopefully it works out....*fingers crossed*
We had to agree that she would know she cannot smoke her pot in my house. My brother is on probation, and I wont risk his freedom so she can get high. This was one of my rules when she came to visit us in Riley, Hubby can get discharged for that, and I dont bend that rule at all! I hate drugs. Also No drinking, I hate alcohol too, Hubby has a problem with alcohol that he still wont admit to...and though I wont get into details...his last little drinking experience cost us a ton of money!
It was a bunch of things that we had to agree on, but I think we got it figured out. One thing Hubby had to know was the reason why my mom was invited into the room, is because she is going to the birthing classes with me...Hubby sadly cant, so my mom needs to be in the room to help me remember. If hubby could have gone to classes I wouldnt invite my mom in. Sadly I dont know if I'm really gonna want his mom in there. I know its my choice...but how rude and bitchy would I look if I kicked her out. Hopefully she doesnt piss me off, I already told Hubby I wont put up with whiney bitchyness from ANYONE in the room....HAHA if you cant tell I am really taking this super serious.
So I guess thats the decision...Hubby is gonna talk to his Mom about it more, and even though she cannot afford to fly herself to Utah, I told hubby she probably wont get to see Baby Love till she is at least a year old next time, and shes going to have to be ok with that. My parents already have 2 trips planned to visit and they are paying their own ways, so it cant be nit picky like he thinks it is...plane tickets are expensive! and we just cant afford to do this all the time.
Hopefully it works out....*fingers crossed*
A-Z of ME!!
A. Age: 21
B. Bed size: here at home...full...back in Riley...KING!
C. Chore you dislike: Scrubbing the toilet seats. Bowl I am fine with....seats are gross!
D. Dogs: 0.
E. Essential start to your day:WATER or a Sprite.
F. Favorite color: Dark Red.
G. Gold or silver: Silver.
H. Height: 5'6
I. Instruments you play(ed): Umm...none. I always wanted to learn piano.
J. Job title: Caretaker, Wife and Soon-To-Be Mom!
K. Kids: 1 little angel on the way!
L. Live: Near Salt Lake City, Utah
M. Mom’s name: Cindy
N. Nicknames: Liz, Lizzie, Lizard, Baby
O. Overnight hospital stays: Zero.
P. Pet peeves: People who whine ALL THE TIME. People acting like they constantly know what your going through. Dumb ass drivers.
Q. Quote from a movie: "Tigers love pepper they hate cinnamon"
R. Righty or lefty:Righty.
S. Siblings: 2 Brothers and 2 Sisters!
T. Time you wake up: Usually 8 or 9.
U. Underwear: No sexy things anymore!
V. Vegetables you don't like:GAH beets!!!!!
W. What makes you run late: ohh I'm never late!! Seriously. Even when I try to be...its a curse.
X. X-rays you’ve had: probably 3 or 4. No broken bones though!
Y. Yummy food you make: Sweet N' Tangy Pork Chops!
Z. Zoo animal favorites: Elephant!
Day 22
Day 22 – post a picture of what keeps you strong when your military SO is away
really any photo of him makes me strong. This is one of the last pictures we took together before he left. I love his face in this one, and this is the one where I daydream about what our daughter will look like. I love my husbands smile...he is so cute.
really any photo of him makes me strong. This is one of the last pictures we took together before he left. I love his face in this one, and this is the one where I daydream about what our daughter will look like. I love my husbands smile...he is so cute.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
FML...sometimes.
I'm really trying not to bitch and moan. But....all I wanna do right now is scream.
No one knows this....but my brother is out of jail. The police arnt done with their investigation and they had no choice but to release him. While he is not in my house, my parents....ok scratch that....my mom is trying to help him, so that he isnt on the streets but because she gave him the rest of his paycheck and is...somehow announcing on facebook that he is going to the bars at night, I dont think...or at least I hope this doesnt last long.
Another thing in my life is yesterday while I was at the Spa with my Mom and Sister-In-Law I got an email from Hubby asking if his mom could come out to Utah when the baby is born....I suggested this months ago! But now that its getting closer and I'm getting more nervous, I really dont want her to come.....call me selfish, but I really want this time alone with Hubby. I havnt had him the entire pregnancy....and its been WAY harder then I expected.
We flew my mother in law out to Riley, before Hubby deployed....and she wouldnt talk to me unless Hubby was home. She slept all day and would only come out of her room if Hubby was there. He talked to her and told her to wake up and do something with me, and she went to starbucks with me, one time....and when we got home, she went to bed. I kinda ran at a loss....we get along on the phone...but I dont know. I just dont know if I wanna deal with it all.
My mom says I am being really selfish but I cant help but have reservations about it all. Now Hubby is mad at me, for not jumping up and down and being super stoked.....I dont know. I feel like such a bitch.
I dont know. I know I suck for venting....and I am sorry I am such a pain. But I just am losing my mind.....glad not to be pregnant and alone...but sometimes, I do wonder...would it have been easier if I had just stayed in Riley? I dont know....5 more months and I can move back...just 5.
No one knows this....but my brother is out of jail. The police arnt done with their investigation and they had no choice but to release him. While he is not in my house, my parents....ok scratch that....my mom is trying to help him, so that he isnt on the streets but because she gave him the rest of his paycheck and is...somehow announcing on facebook that he is going to the bars at night, I dont think...or at least I hope this doesnt last long.
Another thing in my life is yesterday while I was at the Spa with my Mom and Sister-In-Law I got an email from Hubby asking if his mom could come out to Utah when the baby is born....I suggested this months ago! But now that its getting closer and I'm getting more nervous, I really dont want her to come.....call me selfish, but I really want this time alone with Hubby. I havnt had him the entire pregnancy....and its been WAY harder then I expected.
We flew my mother in law out to Riley, before Hubby deployed....and she wouldnt talk to me unless Hubby was home. She slept all day and would only come out of her room if Hubby was there. He talked to her and told her to wake up and do something with me, and she went to starbucks with me, one time....and when we got home, she went to bed. I kinda ran at a loss....we get along on the phone...but I dont know. I just dont know if I wanna deal with it all.
My mom says I am being really selfish but I cant help but have reservations about it all. Now Hubby is mad at me, for not jumping up and down and being super stoked.....I dont know. I feel like such a bitch.
I dont know. I know I suck for venting....and I am sorry I am such a pain. But I just am losing my mind.....glad not to be pregnant and alone...but sometimes, I do wonder...would it have been easier if I had just stayed in Riley? I dont know....5 more months and I can move back...just 5.
Day 21
Day 21 - post a picture of a movie or show you watch when your SO is away that you usually don’t watch when he is home and tell why you don’t watch it when he is home.
Ok...pretty much any movie that has to do with war...I try to avoid.
Ok...pretty much any movie that has to do with war...I try to avoid.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Day 20
Day 20 - post a pic of you in something military (shirt, camo,etc)
this is what i call running around your room trying to take an awesome picture for your boyfriend overseas.
Sorry I dont go to HOOAH unless I need to lol.
this is what i call running around your room trying to take an awesome picture for your boyfriend overseas.
Sorry I dont go to HOOAH unless I need to lol.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
The Living at Home Annoyances!
I dont even care if I spelt that right.
I am pretty frustrated....I realize alot of my "bitching" blog posts are about living at home, which yes I am still grateful I am home and here and not alone preparing for birth. But COME ON!!!
My dad is very into cooking, a common thing him and I share. He is obviously a little more into it then me, because he does make up his own recipes.
A few months ago..It was my night to make dinner....we had a mix to make chili, so I decided to make it. I was pretty exhausted from my morning sickness...more like all day sickness and my dad came over and was pretty much hanging over my shoulder making sure I did everything right....if that wasnt annoying enough he constantly asked me if I put enough water into the mix.....I repeated myself about 5 times before I put the spoon down and walked away from the pot. Frustrated that I wasnt being trusted with something as simple as Chili...which I had made before.
Today.....Same deal....Chicken Helper....so not hard to make at all! I had the chicken out but it wasnt defrosted enough for me, so I ran it underwater for a little bit. My mom hated that idea. Grabbed the chicken out of my hand and started cutting it.....Its not that it couldnt be cut...I just didnt want it to be a pain in my ass when I started cooking it. Finally I threw my hands in the air and said why do I bother!
Everytime I cook its like I'm under a microscope. Its not that I am a bad cook, I'm actually really freaking awesome! (says my husband) But really? simple dinners such as Chili and Chicken Helper cannot be left to me?...I'm 22 in May....I believe I didnt kill my husband or give us food poisening at any point back at Riley....so WTF! I dont get it!! I miss having my own damn home.
Yes, I've learned not to move home during a deployment.....well unless I end up in this situation again.
Thanks for listening to my bitchfest....and pardon my language. (no its not french.)
I am pretty frustrated....I realize alot of my "bitching" blog posts are about living at home, which yes I am still grateful I am home and here and not alone preparing for birth. But COME ON!!!
My dad is very into cooking, a common thing him and I share. He is obviously a little more into it then me, because he does make up his own recipes.
A few months ago..It was my night to make dinner....we had a mix to make chili, so I decided to make it. I was pretty exhausted from my morning sickness...more like all day sickness and my dad came over and was pretty much hanging over my shoulder making sure I did everything right....if that wasnt annoying enough he constantly asked me if I put enough water into the mix.....I repeated myself about 5 times before I put the spoon down and walked away from the pot. Frustrated that I wasnt being trusted with something as simple as Chili...which I had made before.
Today.....Same deal....Chicken Helper....so not hard to make at all! I had the chicken out but it wasnt defrosted enough for me, so I ran it underwater for a little bit. My mom hated that idea. Grabbed the chicken out of my hand and started cutting it.....Its not that it couldnt be cut...I just didnt want it to be a pain in my ass when I started cooking it. Finally I threw my hands in the air and said why do I bother!
Everytime I cook its like I'm under a microscope. Its not that I am a bad cook, I'm actually really freaking awesome! (says my husband) But really? simple dinners such as Chili and Chicken Helper cannot be left to me?...I'm 22 in May....I believe I didnt kill my husband or give us food poisening at any point back at Riley....so WTF! I dont get it!! I miss having my own damn home.
Yes, I've learned not to move home during a deployment.....well unless I end up in this situation again.
Thanks for listening to my bitchfest....and pardon my language. (no its not french.)
23 Weeks!!
Sadly this week is a little surreal for me...My little sister is handicapped and she was actually born at 23 weeks. She wasnt supposta make it past 3 and shes 16 next month! Shes one of the lights of my life. I love her!
yeah thats her :)
Other then that, my morning sickness has come back a bit, can no longer have water in the morning without throwing up....and if I'm right...my feet are starting to swell, but my fingers arnt.
Baby Love moves a lot!! All the time I feel flutters and kicks and punches!! Its so cool! You can even see her moving from the outside right now, and I managed to make a video for Hubby to see and he loved it.
I also bought her carseat!! I was so excited!
Heres my Update from BabyCenter.Com and a picture of my belly and her carseat!
Turn on the radio and sway to the music. With her sense of movement well developed by now, your baby can feel you dance. And now that she's more than 11 inches long and weighs just over a pound (about as much as a large mango), you may be able to see her squirm underneath your clothes. Blood vessels in her lungs are developing to prepare for breathing, and the sounds that your baby's increasingly keen ears pick up are preparing her for entry into the outside world. Loud noises that become familiar now — such as your dog barking or the roar of the vacuum cleaner — probably won't faze her when she hears them outside the womb.
Day 19
Day 19 - Post a picture of his favorite show and tell of one episode you watched with him
UMM....one episode? How about he got me HOOKED on this show!
To be honest I thought it would be really lame...but its freaking sweet!
UMM....one episode? How about he got me HOOKED on this show!
To be honest I thought it would be really lame...but its freaking sweet!
..."little boxes on the hillside little boxes made of ticky tacky little boxes all the same, theres a green one and a pink one and a blue one and a yellow one and they are all made out of ticky tacky and they all look just the same."...
Monday, March 21, 2011
DAY 18
Day 18 – post a picture of the lyrics of yours and your SO’s song and tell how it became y’alls song
**Well first let me tell you...this is probably EVERY MilSpouses song, and I know that! But because we met only about 8ish weeks before he deployed the first time, it means a little something more to us. It was a hard first year, but we made it! We dont regret anything, even our little break up, it just made us realize we belonged together and we needed that to know that. Got an entire year with absolutely no physical contact and just getting to know who eachother really was and I am very grateful for that!! I love my Solider!!!**
Far Away: Nickelback
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Operation Oddessy Dawn
I dont know anyone personally who is currently in Libya, but I've noticed a few girls whos blogs I read, their husbands/boyfriends are there. I wish there was more I could say then I hope they come home soon, because I do hope they do.
When my mother turned on CNN and told me what happened, my immediate reaction was PISSED. I dont watch the news often, because I dont like knowing whats going on in Iraq and Afghanistan all the time. If there is something I need to know, my parents tell me or my husband tells me. I didnt know that the people of Libya were being attacked by their goverment and they were installing fear in these people to stop the riots.
While I now know that we are there to help our Allies I am not resting easy. I watched the news not thinking about this war...I was thinking of their families. How they are watching this and being worried. I cant imagine watching this all unfold and knowing they are over there.
I am not a huge fan of our Goverment...especially now that they are concidering not paying our troops because they are "voulenteering" and also because they cant decide a budget. I personally am sick of our governement. I'm sick of having our brave troops suffer because the people behind a desk who will never see war, make choices that effect their lives. If anyone should not get paid its them.
Anyways....I am still learning about this war..I am glad my husband is not there. But it doesnt make me any less worried then for the families who's loved ones are there. I support you fully! I support my troops and their families. I can only hope and pray this doesnt last long.
When my mother turned on CNN and told me what happened, my immediate reaction was PISSED. I dont watch the news often, because I dont like knowing whats going on in Iraq and Afghanistan all the time. If there is something I need to know, my parents tell me or my husband tells me. I didnt know that the people of Libya were being attacked by their goverment and they were installing fear in these people to stop the riots.
While I now know that we are there to help our Allies I am not resting easy. I watched the news not thinking about this war...I was thinking of their families. How they are watching this and being worried. I cant imagine watching this all unfold and knowing they are over there.
I am not a huge fan of our Goverment...especially now that they are concidering not paying our troops because they are "voulenteering" and also because they cant decide a budget. I personally am sick of our governement. I'm sick of having our brave troops suffer because the people behind a desk who will never see war, make choices that effect their lives. If anyone should not get paid its them.
Anyways....I am still learning about this war..I am glad my husband is not there. But it doesnt make me any less worried then for the families who's loved ones are there. I support you fully! I support my troops and their families. I can only hope and pray this doesnt last long.
Day 17
Day 17 - post a picture of something your SO left you while he was away and how that helped you… did/do you carry it with you or sleep with it?
Ahh my belly hurts today, so I dont wanna walk my pregnant ass upstairs to take a picture of his t-shirt. So I am doing this the lazy way...
His first deployment we had only been dating a few weeks and he suprised me and left in my bag his hat! I was so excited about having my first real army thing!
This deployment I begged him to wear my battalion t-shirt to work (its tan) so that I could smell him! I brought the majority of his clothes to Utah with me for R&R but I have big boobs and they strech his clothes so I was informed by him not to strech out his clothes. I wore the battallion t-shirt one day....had a brain fart and washed it :( but I can still pull out his clothes and smell them. OOOH I love the smell of him!! He's so delicious!.....wow I need R&R.
Ahh my belly hurts today, so I dont wanna walk my pregnant ass upstairs to take a picture of his t-shirt. So I am doing this the lazy way...
His first deployment we had only been dating a few weeks and he suprised me and left in my bag his hat! I was so excited about having my first real army thing!
This deployment I begged him to wear my battalion t-shirt to work (its tan) so that I could smell him! I brought the majority of his clothes to Utah with me for R&R but I have big boobs and they strech his clothes so I was informed by him not to strech out his clothes. I wore the battallion t-shirt one day....had a brain fart and washed it :( but I can still pull out his clothes and smell them. OOOH I love the smell of him!! He's so delicious!.....wow I need R&R.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Gotta Be Honest.
I know all my friends from Utah know this....at least I hope you do, and my family memebers as well.
I didnt know if I was going to write about this, but given that this is my blog about my life...and I told myself to be open and honest in this blog I have to write about it.
Do you all remember me telling you how I have been living with my brother...the one who sexually abused my sister and I? The one who has been driving me insane with his rudeness? Yeah Him. Well he is no longer living in this house....because he is in jail.
I dont really want to post alot about what he did. But it was bad enough we had detectives going though our house putting a case together. As far as we know there are no victims. The police have told us they do not have to tell us anything given that he is over 18. On Tuesday he has court and my mother is planning on going to find out what the charges are, also to find out what they are going to do with him, since its possible the police can throw him out of court...though its highly unlikley. Just so we are clear...he is not allowed back in the house.
He has done too many things, burned too many bridges to be welcomed back into the house.
Its going to be published in the paper we are certain. This 4 months of this deployment have been awful! I'm ready for it to be over with! I am glad my daughter will be safe when she is born though, as well as my niece and my little sister. As things begin to happen I will be writting more and more. Dealing with more emotions seeing as its going to bring up a ton!
I just wanted to be honest with my readers.
I didnt know if I was going to write about this, but given that this is my blog about my life...and I told myself to be open and honest in this blog I have to write about it.
Do you all remember me telling you how I have been living with my brother...the one who sexually abused my sister and I? The one who has been driving me insane with his rudeness? Yeah Him. Well he is no longer living in this house....because he is in jail.
I dont really want to post alot about what he did. But it was bad enough we had detectives going though our house putting a case together. As far as we know there are no victims. The police have told us they do not have to tell us anything given that he is over 18. On Tuesday he has court and my mother is planning on going to find out what the charges are, also to find out what they are going to do with him, since its possible the police can throw him out of court...though its highly unlikley. Just so we are clear...he is not allowed back in the house.
He has done too many things, burned too many bridges to be welcomed back into the house.
Its going to be published in the paper we are certain. This 4 months of this deployment have been awful! I'm ready for it to be over with! I am glad my daughter will be safe when she is born though, as well as my niece and my little sister. As things begin to happen I will be writting more and more. Dealing with more emotions seeing as its going to bring up a ton!
I just wanted to be honest with my readers.
Day 16
Day 16 – post a picture of your favorite piece of jewelry that your man has gotten you and why it is your favorite!
To be honest...its my Wedding Rings.
But also...my husband has never given me any type of jewlery other then this. I was his first relationship, so in ways he is still learning. But in other then the jewlery department he is awesome at selecting gifts for me. :)
Friday, March 18, 2011
Day 15
Day 15 - post a picture of your SO during your proudest moment of him
When Hubby FINALLY got his Sergeant! I wasnt there, sadly he has been in Iraq the whole time he has been a Sergeant, but I was very proud of him! I pushed him to go to the board last deployment and his MOS points are so high it was taking forever for him to get promoted...granted he could have done schooling!, but he finally got it! I was so proud when he told me! Very proud of him!!!
When Hubby FINALLY got his Sergeant! I wasnt there, sadly he has been in Iraq the whole time he has been a Sergeant, but I was very proud of him! I pushed him to go to the board last deployment and his MOS points are so high it was taking forever for him to get promoted...granted he could have done schooling!, but he finally got it! I was so proud when he told me! Very proud of him!!!
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Bad Liz Bad!!
Happy Saint Patrick's Day!!
I know I am slacking on my regular blogging....I am blogging at night to ensure I do, do a post.
Things around my parents house have been sort of hectic. There is alot of stress...which sadly I am giving into. I'm doing my best to calm myself down. Next week my sister-in-law and my mom and I are
Ya blogging about my toes thats great.
I feel like a bad blogger. Just alot of things going through my mind at once...doing my toes was the highlight of my day believe me!!
Although the other day was my nephews 1st Birthday!! We went swimming...and I thought I'd enjoy it...but i ended up not really liking it, and I am pretty sure Baby Love hated it since she didnt move for hours!!! Heres a little picture to show I really went...my nephew is such a chunker!!
Day 14
Day 14 – post a picture of what consumes most of your time when your s/o is away
Sadly its true. My deployment goal before I got pregnant was to lose the weight I gained from last deployment. But now that I am pregnant and really only do my caretaking a few hours a day, I spend most of my time cleaning up the house, watching old shows, watching movies and the occasional baby sitting. The day is still going by fast...but I am sure it would go by way faster if I could do more active things....not going to the amusement park this summer is gonna suck. But I find things to do and I do them...but when those are done then they are gone...so I prolong them so on days I really have the need to get out of the house I get it done :)
Sadly its true. My deployment goal before I got pregnant was to lose the weight I gained from last deployment. But now that I am pregnant and really only do my caretaking a few hours a day, I spend most of my time cleaning up the house, watching old shows, watching movies and the occasional baby sitting. The day is still going by fast...but I am sure it would go by way faster if I could do more active things....not going to the amusement park this summer is gonna suck. But I find things to do and I do them...but when those are done then they are gone...so I prolong them so on days I really have the need to get out of the house I get it done :)
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Day 13
Day 13 – post a picture of your favorite military support accessory and tell where you got it from.
I dont have anything right now...I did just receive a bag from Bracelets Made From Love (on FB) that I am currently loving. I have really always wanted a pin or something of the sort but every time Hubby has re-up'd or been promoted he has been away from me...so I never got anything special. But because he cant re-up till October (right now) he will probably do it when he gets home and then I hope I get a pin.
I do think I deserve a neckless or something :) hmmm....I think its hint dropping time.
I dont have anything right now...I did just receive a bag from Bracelets Made From Love (on FB) that I am currently loving. I have really always wanted a pin or something of the sort but every time Hubby has re-up'd or been promoted he has been away from me...so I never got anything special. But because he cant re-up till October (right now) he will probably do it when he gets home and then I hope I get a pin.
I do think I deserve a neckless or something :) hmmm....I think its hint dropping time.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
22 Weeks!!!
So other then me being 22 weeks! I have to proudly announce that Hubby and I have paid off our car!! I am very happy we got that out of the way! That was our biggest goal this deployment and we did it!!!
Size and growth of the baby: 11 inches long!
Sex: Its a GIRL!!
Maternity clothes: wearing them!!
Sleep: at least 10 hours a night, and starting to need naps!
Best moment(s) of the week: Finding out that she moves way more when I play video games!
Movement: Usually alot more at night.
Labor signs: none.
Belly button in or out: In
What I miss: nothing.
What I'm looking forward to: Her moving way more!!!
How far along: 22 weeks.
Total weight gain: -20
Total weight gain: -20
Size and growth of the baby: 11 inches long!
Sex: Its a GIRL!!
Maternity clothes: wearing them!!
Sleep: at least 10 hours a night, and starting to need naps!
Best moment(s) of the week: Finding out that she moves way more when I play video games!
Movement: Usually alot more at night.
Food cravings/aversions: Cherry Pies and burritos.
Morning sickness: None anymore.
Morning sickness: None anymore.
Labor signs: none.
Belly button in or out: In
What I miss: nothing.
What I'm looking forward to: Her moving way more!!!
heres my update from BabyCenter.Com
At 11 inches (the length of a spaghetti squash) and almost 1 pound, your baby is starting to look like a miniature newborn. His lips, eyelids, and eyebrows are becoming more distinct, and he's even developing tiny tooth buds beneath his gums. His eyes have formed, but his irises (the colored part of the eye) still lack pigment. If you could see inside your womb, you'd be able to spot the fine hair (lanugo) that covers his body and the deep wrinkles on his skin, which he'll sport until he adds a padding of fat to fill them in. Inside his belly, his pancreas — essential for the production of some important hormones — is developing steadily.
Military Style Day 12
Day 12 – post a picture of a book you are reading/have read b/c of your s/o being in the military and tell how it has helped you
I really liked this book...I am not much of an advice book reader, but this one was really easy to read and very helpful with a few things. I liked it alot.
I really liked this book...I am not much of an advice book reader, but this one was really easy to read and very helpful with a few things. I liked it alot.
Monday, March 14, 2011
MilSpouse Survey!
Erin had on her blog today this Survey...and I love answering questions! I feel important when I do it!! :) Feel free to do it if you'd like!
1. How long have you been a military wife? I've been a Wife since December 09,
and a SO since August 08
2. What branch of service is your husband? US ARMY
3. Active/Reserve? Active
4. What is his job? 13-D Field Artillery
5. How many deployments have you gone through? One, and currently on our 2nd.
6. ACU's or Class A's on your man? WHATEVER its coming off anyways! :)
7. What do you like about being a military wife? The hero!
8. Do you live on base? Nope. But when I move back to Fort Riley we will be.
9. What is your favorite base so far? Only had Fort Riley...but we really want Fort Lewis or Fort Carson
10. What's the hardest part of the military life? Separation. I can deal with it not being organized. I dont listen to rumors, I wait until days before it's really supposta happen to believe anything! So far its working out pretty good! But when you take my best friend away...it hurts BAD.
11. Do you go to the grocery store or commissary? I went to both. Commissary has way better meat, but sometime their groceries are really higher.
12. Do you work or stay at home? I do not work. I kinda do right now as a caretaker for my sister but thats only a few hours a day...the little money I get is worth it to do more fun things and save all this deployment money! Which btw did I mention we paid off our car :)
13. Do you have a lot of military wife friends? NOPE. But I have lots of friends in the blogger world I love!
14. Do you prefer Walmart or the PX/BX/MCX/NEX? I would rather go to Walmart..but I love looking at the PX.
15. How did your husband propose? Christmas Morning 09! Had my ring in my stocking and gave it to me while everyone was asleep :)
16. Did you marry him after he joined or before? After.
17. How long have you been together? 3 years in August.
18. Any kids yet? One baby girl on the way.
19. Any kids yet to come? DITO
20. Is your husband one of those "I am a soldier hear me HOOAH" kind of guys? HAHA no...but when he is with my grandpa who is a veteran they kinda do that
21. Have you ever done combatives with your husband? what?
22. How many bases have you lived at? 1
23. If you could change one thing about the military? I wish all branches had the same length of deployements! I'd love shorter ones!
24. Do you like military balls? Never been but I wanna go to at least one :)
25. Where does your family live? Utah, and California
26. What do you do for a job? Caretaker for my Handicapped little sister.
27. Have you ever gotten in a fight with an NCO's wife? Nope...never needed to.
28. Name one thing you do when your husband is gone? Send him a million goodies!! Constantly write him emails. Take lots of pictures for him!
29. Do you think other wives do that too? I'm sure some do....but I know way too many that spend way too much time with other men.
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